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All of us were at Cik Mansor's open house when we heard the news. I, for one, heard it, when I just entered the house, salam-ing my aunts, uncles and guests. After all the guests have left, we left for Punggol at about 10pm.
I knew that she was in ICU, and in the doctor's words,'we've done everything that we can', but I didn't expect her to leave us so soon. I mean, it was just on the second day of Hari Raya that I last saw her.
Somehow, I got reminded of the day when arwah Tok left us. The grief and the loss that we felt, and now another loss.
Until u lose someone dear and precious to you, you will never know how it feels like. Be it your grandparents or parents. And seeing Abang Nizaar and Abang Najeeb so overwhelmed with emotions and grief just saddens me and brings tears to my eyes.
Just like when he was addressing all who came to forgive his mother for any wrongdoings and meeting him if there was any debts left unpaid by his mother, just before the body was carried up the bus. His voice was choking, but it was certainly admirable of him to continue speaking, in such a coherent voice.
Just like when I saw Abg Najeeb enter his mother's room, looking around, sitting on the bed, with tears in his eyes. Such sadness and grief he must be feeling, at separation from his mother, whom he'd taken care of over the years, with no complaints.
Death and separation are both inevitable. And I, for one do not want to experience it again, or even seeing that happen to any of my cousins. But, it's such an impossible request, kan?
Sometimes, death is a good thing - it helps us to do some self-reflection. Are we ready to leave this world and face God? Have we done enough good deeds to be proud of before we face Him? Have we really repented and vow never to do the same sins again?
All we can do is pray that we're equipped to face God, pray for our loved ones who've left us, pray for the health and wellness of loved ones - parents, grandparents, relatives and pray that we'll be filial children who are able to take care of our parents.
Prayers, I believe, is best as it gives us hope and faith and maybe, a psychological advantage.
All right, the start of a brand new week, and of course, being mentally prepared for 9-7 classes tomorrow.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
More houses to visit this Hari Raya. Well, my family can never finish visiting. there are just too many houses but we will always prioritise and go to the important houses first. The last weekend, my family had an open house at my uncle's house where my mum's cousins came...yes to only ONE house. I guess it's easier that that way....only ONE house will be dirty and yes, not so much dishes to cook.
This Friday, my mum will have an open house for my father's side, and the weekends will be spent visiting again.
This Eid, I admit, was not as exciting as previous years. The amount of pictures my cousins and I take dwindled drastically. It's really alarming, I have to say. None of us was in the mood to cam-whore. I'll post the pictures soon, once I get hold of the camera (I dunno where it is now).
Jalan raya with friends on 3rd Nov. Hmmm,not sure if I can make it since I have school that day and I really do not know what time I end...at 3pm most probably.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I'm back from my lazy mood to update. well, I guess I am in one of my rare moods to update.
First up, I had a lot of fun meeting up with the girls (and guys) on Sunday for buka - Khalies, Nuraini+Zul, Shareena, Farah, Shafia, Azzah, Hazwani, Ellia, Iffah+Abbas. It's been such a long time since I met them and it was fun, catching up and talking nonsense.
How fast time flies and it's going to be the end of Ramadan in a few days' time. Somehow, I'm not in the mood for Hari Raya this year and this seems to be very prevalent among my friends. I guess it lies smack in the middle of school,exams and what-nots.
Let's see what I need to do to the house:
- carpets I need to lay out the red ones that we usually use for hari raya, vacuum it, mop the floor, etc
- furniture re-arrange the furniture so that the house looks presentable to welcome guests
- bedsheets well, it's understood. my mum bought some new ones and I'll have to choose which one I want to use
- tablecloth that will only be done after breaking fast on the last day of fasting. it's off-whitish in colour, so I do not want it stained even before Raya.
I guess that's about it. I only baked 3 types of kuihs...and I think that's really a LOT already. Besides, my mum always cooks when people come over to my house, so the number of kuihs I have is justified, I think, as people will be too full to taste the kuihs once they finish eating.
The curtains are hanged. My mum will deal with the flowers as I'm not particularly good at arranging flowers. No new baju kurungs for me this year either. I'm just recycling some old ones.
And I'm so not ready for school - I have lessons from 9am-7pm on Mondays. That is REALLY Monday blues, man.
As for now, I have a feeling my timetable this semester is really bad although I haven't really sat down and looked through it as there are so many changes to the timetable.
On the bright side, it's only for 5 weeks, after which, I'll be out in the clinics for 5 weeks, something which I'm quite scared about. And that leaves me with only one pathetic week in December - my break week. Good luck to me. Pray that I survive this semester.
