lives in her own utopian world. loves the blessed life that she has surrounded by friends and family.Gemz.Cam-whore.Queen of Blurness. Thrives in sarcasm.
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I was deemed useless the whole weekend due to my incessant cough and fluctuating fever. The medication I took totally knocked me out and made me feel like a complete weakling. My muscles feel so sore and weak and I did not get any readings done over the weekend! At this stage, I really can't afford to fall behind and waste my time at leisure as everything will be at full speed from here on. That's precisely why I hate to see the doctor and take medicine. I do not like to take medicine and would like to think that my immune system is strong enough to fight all the bacteria and viruses 'happy hour' in my body. Medicine just knocks you out and make you a useless being.
Hmmm I know these was taken years ago but I shall put it up anw as I simply love them so much.
I hope I can meet up with my friends soon if my health permits me to do so, insya-Allah.
Saturday, April 28, 2007
I'm currently watching the Man U-Eveton match and Man U is really playing shitty football, I tell you. They are trailing by 2 goals at the moment and if they lose, they will be level on points with Chelsea. It really makes me wonder why Ronaldo is not in the starting line-up, to rest him for the Milan game probably. I feel so angry, just by looking at Man U play.
The score now at Stanford Bridge is 2-2. I'll be a Bolton supporter for now and hope that they will take the lead.
And so Man U takes a 5 point lead over Chelsea. What a complete turnaround of events. It was definitely a feat to score 4 goals in the second half. If Man U beats Man City in the next match, the Premiership title is well theirs. Champions League? I'n not sure, actually, as the defence really looks shaky. Only Heinze is the dependable one.
Something totally random - my energy is all sapped up due to too much coughing. I refrain myself from talking just to avoid coughing. haha..I can't even complete a sentence! And that's really a burden. I mean, how can I not talk right? Talking (nonsense) defines who I really am, you know!
I think there is really something wrong with my immune system at the moment. First, I had red rashes all over my face - itchy and stinging sensations all over. The redness has subsided and to put it simply, my face is far from clearing up and yes, not smooth. Call me vain, whatever. Vanity is a part of MY life. Now, I've been hit by the flu bug and very bad cough. And just when things are about to pick up pace in school, my immune system decides to die on me.
Overall, it's been a happy week for me, just because. Most of it is because Man U won. I was very surprised at the last goal actually. I really did not think that Rooney would shoot and put the ball in the net. The match literally put me at the edge of my seat. From a neutral point of view, the match was really quality football.
On a side note, I think there should me more halal places in Singapore. To be frank, I do not know a lot of halal places here in the first place. And yes, I do find it difficult to find a place to eat, more so when I'm out with my Chinese friends and I'm the only Malay in the class. I feel really bad when they have to accommodate to me as halal places are really few and scattered. So are there any kind souls out there who could give me some links to halal places here in Singapore?
Friday, April 20, 2007
The first week of school has passed and I have to say that I'm pretty tired. Not because there are too many things to do (for the time being), but my days are really packed. The earliest I end is 4. No short days whatsoever - I start at 9 everyday and end at 5 or 6 every other day. It really makes me wonder how I'm ever going to catch up on my work, seeing that I have zilch energy to do anything when I reach home. I guess the only way out is to stay back until 7-8 and do my readings in school. Consistent work is the way to go this semester.
I'm not really complaining about the timetable as I have resigned to fate about it. I'm not the only one who has to go through this packed course and the various intensive modules. Besides, it is really for my own future. My dream has always been to be a good clinician. Not for glory, but more for the satisfaction I get from helping my clients.
Surprisingly, I find myself enjoying more of what I'm studying now as compared to when I was in year one. The modules I'm taking at the moment are more closely related to physiotherapy and yes, I've finally gotten a clearer picture of the various branches of physiotherapy. Sitting in the library for long periods to read the various textbooks and journals seem and is tiring but I'm enjoying myself nonetheless. A lot of independent learning to be done, but I'm basking in it. You can say that I've been enlightened of some sorts and looking at the brighter side of things. The going has not gotten tough yet but I hope I'm able to overcome any challenges that come in my way.
I had a nice retail therapy session just now with Syafiqah. Everything was very last minute but I'm glad we met, for me to unwind (and her too) before school starts in full swing. We went to town but we couldn't find anything to our liking so we headed to the heartlands in ToaPayoh. Really good bargains there and we did not have time to cover all the shops. More like I was almost bankrupt after covering about 4 shops. I'm glad too that Syaf finally spent her money. It's really a feat okay to see her spend cos she never buys anything whenever I go out with her. I will always be the one who spends my money in the end although she is the one who has the income coming in!
It was really budget shopping. I mean, I have never gone for brands and anything above 30 bucks for a top or pants is a definite no-no for me. I managed to get 2 tops, 3 pants and a pair of sandals - all for less than 100 bucks. Really good money, huh?
I'm kind of broke at the moment with textbooks and stethoscope to buy. I never knew that a stethoscope can cost so much - the cheapest is 55 bucks but of course the quality is compromised. Sighz, I think I need to fork out at least 400 bucks for my books and stethoscope. Now where do i get the money from?
Sunday, April 15, 2007
On the way back from work on Thursday, I alighted at Tanah Merah just to vomit out my breakfast and lunch. I had been feeling queasy the whole day but I thought I could resist vomiting until I reached home. I was proven wrong, of course. Imagine the feeling when you are trying to keep your puke in from Novena all the way to Tampines, while breaking out in cold sweat! There goes my prata and french toast! Well, of course I was too weak to take the train back to Tampines so I just took a cab home. I think the 2 dollars surcharge is really a hell lot of money, no kidding! I'm swearing off taking cabs during the peak hours unless I really cannot help it. Such an irony, this coming from someone who used to take cabs to work everyday while waiting for her A level results.
Oh that night, I took some medicine and went to sleep but I just had to vomit out all my medicine. A few minutes later, I had the urge to vomit again but nothing came out. So, why do I feel like puking even though my stomach is really empty? I myself do not have the answer. You know, I really hate to vomit as I really hate the feeling of my throat and intestines coming out through my mouth!
On Friday, I had to force myself to go to work as it's my last day of attachment and I need my supervisor to grade me. Plus the fact that I do not want to come back another day to make up for my absence. I was still unwell and I think I have gastric flu. My stomach hurt the whole day but I was strong enough to make it to the class dinner. It was fun seeing everyone again after so long although we'll all meet again for school tomorrow. The main topic for the night was of course about our clinical experience.
All I can say is that I really enjoyed myself the past 3 weeks and I have really learnt a lot. The people were warm and friendly and yes, they love to talk nonsense, so it was not difficult for me to fit in! =)
Howells, back to school tomorrow...but somehow, I'm quite looking forward to it!
Friday, April 06, 2007
The new in Singapore nowadays is pretty much exciting don't you think? Mind-boggling at times.
Have you read about how a 9 year old girl got pregnant? The parents didn't even know she was expecting, owing her increase in weigh to puberty and what not. How can a couple as young as that know anything about s\e\x\? Hmm, what was I doing at that age? Let me see, I was a free-spirited child playing catching, going to the playground with my cousins.
Did you read about this 7 year old child prodigy who has already sat for the Chemistry O level paper and got a C for it? Genius, right? I only got a B for my Chemistry O level...at 16 years old, with much difficulty, if I may add!
Recently, an orphanage was in the limelight for abusing the children. Now this got me fuming. How can you do that to orphans and innocent children? Don't you have any ounce of compassion or even conscience in you? Having said that, why am I not surprised that the home is a Muslim organisation? May you have your retribution, you evil supervisor. Actually, what really irked me was that the committee members of the home knew there was abuse but they did not think that it was too serious. My question is, why on earth didn't you conduct an investigation when you knew it was happening? Why take the sit-back-and-look approach? Why can't you be a little bit more practive to protect these innocent children? Why wait until everything is exposed? If not for some reporters, I would not think that this injustice would have come to light and the children would still be living in silent agony.
That's the Malay mentality for you. Sit back and see what happens. Relak one corner.In other words, they do not want to do extra work and trouble themselves over something that does not concern them. Why? Because those affected are not their children. I may be a Malay, a pseudo-Malay for that matter, but why am I so bold in criticising my own race? That's because it's this very attitude of the Malays that has to be addressed. All this talk about Melayu baru will not materialise unless there's a change in the attitude and mindset of the Malays. Only then will the Malays progess.
Nak ada bayak harta buat apa? Bukannya kau boleh bawa bila dah mati. (Translated: Why do you need so much wealth since you can't bring your entire fortune with you when you die?)
I'm sure the Malays out there will have heard of the older generation saying the above. A very favourite line by the makciks and pakciks. Although there might be some truth in it, I don't entirely agree with it. Simply because it hinders us from working hard and earning big moolah. I think that it's not wrong to work hard and earn a lot of money, provided one puts the wealth to good use and knows how to balance life - work, family and religion.
On a side note, my timetable's out and it is really shitty. Whoever has lessons from 8-6? Stress will set in again, my gut instincts tells me that much. I just pray that I won't be so overwhelmed with the workload in my 2nd year and hopefully, sanity will prevail for me.
