lives in her own utopian world. loves the blessed life that she has surrounded by friends and family.Gemz.Cam-whore.Queen of Blurness. Thrives in sarcasm.
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The holidays are finally here, but only for 4 weeks, another 3 weeks for clinical. I want to take a break for a week, go out with my friends, watch DVDs. After that, it's back to studying for clinicals. Recap all my anatomy and EPA stuffs and yes, handling and transferring techniques. I guess my top priority now is to catch up on my sleep as well as regulating my sleeping cycle again. It's really gone haywire, with only an average sleep of 2-4 hours for the past 2 weeks.
It really saddens me that so many of my relatives are critically ill or have just passed away. A grandaunt of mine in KL just passed away on Thursday night, and another granduncle of mine is just bidding his time, ebbing away by the hours. It brings me back to 3 yrs ago when my late grandfather passed away.I still miss him, I really do, but life moves on. It makes you realise that life is so short and one should treasure one's loved ones before it's too late. Cliched, but it's a fact.
At certain points in your life, you just tend to review your options in you life as well as your career paths. Sometimes I really wonder if I have made the right decision in entering this course. I just get very tired, jaded and disillusioned from all the studying. At the end of the day, your remunerations are not reflective of the amount of sweat, tears, hard work and late nights you put in for four years. Ultimately, I hope to see myself as an effective clinician who is able to help my patients.
But again, cynical thinking kicks in again, leading me to wonder if I would still stay in this field for a long time. I'll give myself about 5 yrs of clinical experience first and think about the rest later.
For now, I will just concentrate on my clinicals and see how it goes.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
My eyes are red and my shoulders ache from reading all those journals for tomorrow's pract test. Those journals are really giving me a headache as I seem to lose my focus easily and am not able to understand much. Never mind, I shall smoke my way through tomorrow.
As a matter of fact, I'm the last person for tmr's viva, at 4.45pm. What perfect timing! What are the chances of having my lecturer being bored and shooting me down with questions? I really hope she does not do that and pray that she will be lethargic from having to sit through almost 8 hours of invigilation and practically asking the same questions.
Okay, back to reading more journals and anatomy. You must feel so lonely, oh my muscles, for having neglected you for 2 weeks. Which thus brings me to panic mode since I've really forgotten all my muscle attachments for lower limb. Don't even ask me about upper limb which was last semester's work. Now can you see why I'm so dead for my semestral exams as well as my clinicals?
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Singapore is the champion of South-East Asia football, yet again. BAik ah, Lions. The match just now was a bit rough and dirty at times. From a neutral point of view, I thought that Singapore played scrappy and thrashy football at times. No, most of the time, sadly. Just look at how they defended and the goal they conceded.
My gut instincts told me that the Lions were settling for a draw but I couldn't help but feel nervous when time was running out. Then came a certain soccer player to score a spectacular goal. Fuh, I managed to sigh with relief after going all crazy and hysterical and jumping and screaming, of course. This man does it again, just like two years ago at Senayang Stadium, Indonesia in front of 100, 000 Indonesian fans, mind you.
Soccer is such a passionate game. Sometimes you just get too involved with the match and really abhor it when others criticise your team. It happened at my grandma's place just now when my uncle was rooting for Thailand and kept criticising Singapore. I just felt so incensed and told him that he was just wasting his saliva as no one was listening to him! My cousins and I also retorted that he was giving a live commentary to the Malay-speaking Thai community in Thailand in a non-existent channel, Channel 26. We even told him to change his citizenship and buy a house in Thailand! How unpatriotic can someone get, right?
But naysayers might ask if I'm really that patriotic to my country. Maybe I'm not that patriotic, but don't you dare insult Singapore football in front of me, okay. Yes, that coming from someone who has followed the national team from its glorious days in Malaysia Cup (the last was of course 1994) even though I was very young then until now. There was the Dream Team and there was even a poster of the players, hokay. And I certainly remembered their names till today. There was David Lee, Kadir Yahya, the late Borhan Abu Samah, Lim Tong Hai, Steven Tan, Malek Awab, Abbas Saaad and Fandi Ahmad, just to name a few.
Whatever it is, I'm happy and go to sleep grinning to myself, although I'm a bit sore that the final leg was not held in Singapore. Oh yes, the AFF people should consider having a referee from a totally neutral region to officiate the finals, just like two years ago. It would have given the tournament, which has often been marred by unsporting behaviour and match-fixing, much credibility.
I think that the Lions' victory this time round is a more deserving one. Cos they met all the big guns - Vietnam, Indonesia, Malaysia,Thailand this time and managed to overcome them. Don't you think so?
My thoughts on the match between singapore and thailand - no sportsmanship at all. It truly kills the whole spirit of sports and soccer. To me, it's part and parcel of soccer. All teams, at least once, will have to face with harsh decisions. It's how you deal with it. Enough said though I'm not talking about the Singapore team.
Thankfully, I do not need to come back to school next week, except on Tuesday, for my pract test and maybe meeting for the Kine video. It's like a self-declared study week for me. And yes, I have yet to start any preparations for semestral exams which is like 2 weeks away. I'm seriously going crazy and instead of blabbering away, it's more fruitful if I do my physiology tutorial now, to be handed in later in the morning.
