SilMarWeN

Sunday, July 23, 2006

i think i'm going insane - to actually skip in the middle of the night, do jumping jacks and carry weights to strengthen my arms which are super duper weak by the way.

so now, i'm high due to exercise and high on briyani, satay, suji and brownies. seriously ate a lot just now, but that's to be expected during the weekly family gathering. i seldom eat in sch cos well, i'm just a fussy eater. but boy, i do seriously have a voracious appetite.and it does scare me sometimes, scared that i might not be able to control my weight. maybe i'm just being paranoid but this is certainly one of a typical girl's fear, no?

and i'm super terrified of getting a heart attack. it must be the cardiovascular physiology topic that i studied. i mean after learning abt the heart and its functions and physiology....i'm super scared thAT my heart will just stop functioning well due to the lack of exercise and unhealthy diet on my part...i mean, never say that these kind of things will never hit you cos life's really unpredictable.

my sister just farted and it really stinks.

what makes you think that you are your dream guy's dream girl or dream girl's dream guy? complicated, i know. go figure. cynical thinking, i agree.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

it is just me or is there really the ocean to study? i'm so dead for my semestral exams which is in less than a month's time. there's so much to study for anatomy, kine, physiology, mandarin and sociology....and i'm super super behind time. there's attachement to think of after that. howells, come what may and i should really stop grumbling and get my ass down to mugging. why does it seem to me that this part of my education journey is the toughest? yes, it's even worse than a levels. the worst has yet to come for me.which inevitably brings me to the point of thinking twice abt my choice of course.dun get me wrong. i enjoy what i'm doing, i love my classmates o bits, i love the fact that i learn a lot of new, interesting and mind-boggling stuffs everyday. but i just simply LOATHE studying. that's always the case for me. everything's interesting but absolutely disgusting to study for examination purposes.

i want to watch lake house. it should be intersting to watch and get my social life back on track. hmmmm..patience....in abt a month's time. fasting month is coming soon and i have yet to pay back my fast. *panics*

Sunday, July 09, 2006

i had my first driving lesson just now and i seemed to be enjoying it. maybe it's just the first few lessons.i'm driving manual okay. dun play play. heh. one blunder of the day: i confidently did not bring my pdl to practical. so i had to run back to my house and take it. classic blurness.

i went to my sister's graduation ceremony just now at nus. my sister and i had to sit outside, hmmm more like loiter outside as there were not enough invitation cards for the whole family. only 4 invitation cards available for each student. and so what did the both of us do to pass the time before the ceremony started?

we even resorted to taking pictures in the toilet, hokay.

i'm sure random readers are already bored of our faces, particularly mine but i'm not. i'm a narcissist, remember? despite the fact i look super duper ugly in pictures.

after being so tired of posing for pictures sampaikan kalah supermodels, you, we decided to have a drink just so that we can sit down. but those itchy fingers of mine just can't stop clicking on the camera.they are somehow attracted to those cute silver button on my phone.

this is what boredom does to you...to be a superbly narcissistic person...inside out. tsk tsk.

and oh finally, a picture of the graduate....moi sister with the sisters. nyeh.

with the parents and brothers

and finally, one whole big family

okay there are more things to update but i'm tired...so i will update again...soon...prob next weekend or sth. adios

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i'm so sad. why are all the cute and hot soccer players at this world cup going home early? first,there was my beloved roque santa cruz. okay i dun really know anyone else that's gone home from the world cup worth mentioning. kaka, perhaps. but at least there's philip lahm left. ooh, i like paolo maldini but too bad, he's retired from international football and did not even feature in this world cup. best defender italy ever had, i have to say. okay, bimbo mode over.

i met up with azzah, syaf and nuraini yesterday. these girls are super broke. and the angelic me treated them to fried mars bars. heh. since i'm the on who has a decent bank account. not bad for a shopaholic like me. but i ended up not buying anything yesterday except for food which is super essential to me. and yes i have to say this again- i'm super good at making pple spend moeny. the devilish side of me. not so angelic after all, am i?

i had a really long talk with azzah at eastpoint bk yesterday. i really really miss her, engaging in our super deep and serious talks, just like the old chai chee days. heh. the times when i was still teaching with her.

my classmate just had to say that my malay is super atrocious. and i went on arguing that my malay is fine since i took higher malay in sec sch. and of course he said that he took hml in sec sch too.the bottom line is that his malay is way better than mine and knowing that i cannot keep my mouth shut and always wanting to have the last word, i duly called him the Malay Professor. hah, padan muka.

gua punya bahasa melayu alright per.

i was being in my irritating mode yesterday and started speaking in chinese and indian accents to my sisters and brother. with the frquent giggles and roar of laughter in between. gosh, even i found that irritating. i love being an irritanr sometimes. that's because i'm always surrounded by one at home. sometimes more.

germany vs italy. who will prevail?i have to say it's.........
act i dunno. both sides are good.and germany has home ground advantage.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

i do not know how i survived this week but i did. with kine pract test, physiology test and the dreaded anatomy. i have to start studying full swing now. no more slacking and procrastinating. my brain is fully saturated with muscles and more muscles.

another hectic week of school awaits. it's back to my normal, routine boring life for now. my life revolves around school and giving tuition. howells.....not a single bit of social life i have now.

oh i heard nus is going to set up school of allied health sciences.bloody hell. but it's a matter of when it's going to be set up. which brings me to the point that these pple who are going to take thee courses in nus will inevitably look down on their counterparts who graduated from poly...nanyang poly, like me.because of this, i am more determined to take convert my diploma to degree in australia.

that's the mindset of singaporeans. poly is second-class. university is first-class. i've come to a point of time where i cannot be bothered of people's impression of me when i tell them i'm in poly taking physiotherapy after a levles. they think that i'm back-tracking and it's a waste of time of me to o to ajunior college in the first place. but i guess i'm the one who's having the last laugh. why? because they are the ones who are so dense, daft and ignorant that they do not know that the prerequisite to take physio is act a levels. blame the gahmen then for not having this course in local universiies. and besides, when these pple have injuries, i wonder who they look for. tsk tsk.

yes, i'm a bit upset that the public does not give us pple who want to major in physio but has no means whatsoever to go overseas from the very beginning, credit for going to poly. well, just because it's poly. i'm not complaining though. the fact that i chose this route means that i have to be strong and resilient in handling all these criticisms that are flying at me. at the end of the day, i'm a great believer of following my heart and chasing my dreams. or risk rotting in Faculty of Science in nus which i rejected, by the way.