lives in her own utopian world. loves the blessed life that she has surrounded by friends and family.Gemz.Cam-whore.Queen of Blurness. Thrives in sarcasm.
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it had been a fun-filled weekend for me. the barbecue cum sleepover dinally materialised. plans to go to sentosa for the bbq was forfeited and we had it at kak efah's place instead. i practically fasted the whole of saturday so that i can eat a lot. as u can anticipate, i was so downright famished that i had the honour of being the first to eat the spaghetti. so we had the usual hotdogs, fishball, pasta and honey chicken, plus the wonderful but spicy ikan bakar.
no pictures here cos i didn't bring along the camera. it's more like some irresponsible people (read: my sisters) are too lazy (they would like to think that they are busy)to upload the picutres that they've so not lazily snapped. i have yet to start nagging to them but i will soon. someone's gotta do the job to. heh
after kak efah's friends and their respective fiancess left, the cousins, abg shah, herman(shah's friend) and his fiancee, farah decided to take a night spin. we took such a long time to decide where to go. in the end, off we go to mcafe in west coast. it was already 1 plus in the morning on the eve of a public holiday, yet it was still relatively crowded.
pardon my ignorance but i though cny was supposed to be abt spending time with one's family and also have their reunion dinner, but i still see a lot of chinese outside.
hmm so after having our rinks, we headed to the spider web. like monkeys, we climbed all they way up and sat there for some time, enjoying the wind and doing what we're good at - talking crap. =)
we still did not want to go home albeit the time. so off we go to sentosa and enjoyed the nice view. i dun exactly know where it is but it's somewhere near coffee bean. the view was simply scenic. enjoyed the wind some more and we headed down to tanjong beach, our last destination.
overall, i had fun despite feeling so sleey the next day wehre i had to attend my cousin's engagement. okay, i shall stop here. i'm too tired to go into all the details.=)
Saturday, January 28, 2006
finally, the much anticipated long weekend has come!! but i guess it'll be a lil bit boring as most of the shops will be closed which translates into having nowhere to go, except the beach. and going to the beach is equals to going to geylang as many malay families will be there, enjoying the holidays, with the sun, sand and sea.
but i will be busy for these two days nonetheless. a sleepover with the darling gemz and a midnight barbecue. hmmmm, it has been some time since i ate baarbecued food and plus the good company, laughters and tummyaches abode! then on sunday, i have to go to my aunt's house for my cousin's engagement...the paternal side.
that leaves mon and tues free and wed for that matter and the following day and so on and so forth. hah, the perks of being an unemployed lady! i have basic theory test on thurs which i have yet to pore over the book and tuition kicks in on fri night. it will just do to occupy my time as for now and yes, i'm perfectly contented with life at the moment. the worrying part has to come much later or rather, i'm not sure if i want to start worrying yet...but it will come....in abt 2-3 weeks' time.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i'm getting all excited after reading kak efah's blog which has also become her wedding journal. and i'm getting all psyched up to look out for bridesmaid dresses design. don't mind me as i really have nothing to do. =)plus there are so many websites to surf although most dresses are sleevless, halter or tube-like. that's the last thing to be worried abt as modifications can be made.
some of the dresses at www.dessy.com
with the pending results, i have been thinking a lot of getting an education overseas. personally, it's not for prestige or maybe i'm just not good enough for the local universities. what's really appealing to me is the opportunity to go out of my comfort zone and be a more independent and holistic person. to broaden my horizon and experience things i've never expected myself to.
canada would be a very good choice for me aside from the fact that lodging will be free courtey of syafiqah's aunt. however, the setback is of course money and i'm not sure if the universities in canada are recognised by singapore. university of western ontario in canada is well known for its Faculty of Health Sciences. recognised by singapore? i'm not sure.
people might wonder why not australia since it's much nearer to home. i guess australia is really getting expensive and it's getting quite racist. i'm not really sure abt that but that's the idea i get through the papers. UK? too expensive. the US? nah. never. so that leaves with canada, a country made up of immigrants. safe and the standard of living is much lower than the above mentioned countries. a pic of the uni of western ontario
i guess all my dreams might never come true. of course i'd like it to come true but there are a lot of things to think abt. first thing, money. i can only go overseas if i manage to clinch a scholarship which is never ever going to come true(based on my gut instincts). and even if i do, i will be sent either to australia or uk. not canada. above is a pic of uni of sydney. probably the one that i'm going to in, erm 3 years time? insya-allah.
Monday, January 23, 2006
hmmm my cramps are super bad. they really hurt. oh cramps oh cramps, pls do go away. that says a lot abt a girl who does not have cramps.
okay rumours have it that a level resuls will be out on 21st feb. or the very least, the third week of feb. whichever it is, it's in abt a mth's time! oh no, i'm so not looking forward to it. just thinking abt it brings jitters to me.
oh i dreamt that i got A,C,D for my results and i remembered that i was so disaapointed cos my D was bio. i mean it's my strongest subject by far and surprise, surprise, i got A for chem. hah....
seriously i dun think it's real cos i vaguely remembered that there was the breakdown of marks on my certificate. and they compared my results with that i achieved during prelims. whatever it is, i wish and pray for the best.
my basic theory test is next week and i have yet to 'study'. i merely just skimmed through the book. and finally, tuition's inally strating next friday. at least i have sth to do rather than idle my time away.
and so, Manhester United won liverfool 1-0 through a last minute header by ferdinand. he finally put some worth to his name after a series of defending antics that are questionable.it was a pretty boring match in the first half with minimal chances by both teams. during the second half, liverpool imcreased the temp of the match and dominated the match. but alas, man u regrouped themselves and played better. my heart practically stopped when ferdinand cleared the ball off the goal line. lucky, isn't it?
okay, enough of soccer. let's switch over to badminton....the All England Cup. haha ionly watched like one and one uarter of a match? but the second set of the mixed doubles match was highly entertaining and nerve-wrecking for the players. it was England vs China. i was actually rooting for China to win.it must be the Asian sentiments, i guess. =) there was certainly a lot of match points in th second set and the english actually had the advantage. they were leading 14-13. the chinese had to get a point to extrend the match point to 17. but well the chinese kept their cool and they certainly had a lot of stamina as compared to the english in the thid set which they won 15-1.
okay, enough of sports. i realise i've been eating a lot of briyani rice in the past two mths. i ate it again yesterday at my aunt's house for the usual weekly famly gathering. my aunt was like "kenapa org yang mati kat suratkhabar semua handsome-handsome?". (translated: Why is it that those man who have passed away and whose pictures are printed on the newspaper are all so handsome?) gosh, of all things to notice and observe while reading the newspaper!
i really want to watch Pride and Prejudice and Le Grand Voyage and i can't wait for the long weekend this week. i'm talking as if i have been so utterly busy for the past weeks.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
i just finished reading azzah's blog and i kind of liked the links that she had put in her blog. some video presentations when u feel that life sucks at the moment and that the world is filled with atrocities. it's quite inspirtional i must say. so u can click on the link below.
it had been a fruitful day yesterday and i certainly had fun, spending time with my dearest joey and friends whom i've not met for quite some time. started the day by going to nyp open house. i basically got most of my questions answered and now i'm undeecided between physiotherapy and occupational therapy. it was just left the two of us, joey and i as we made our way to nyp since huda was just too lazy to get up and travel. i took 72 there, all the way from tampines. the journey was surprisingly short, i must say. maybe not. i guess it's about the same as the journey from tampines to tkgs.40 minutes or so.
then, off we go to juntion 6 since both of us were too lazy to throng the crowded and packed like sardines orchard. and yes, we watched the much talked-about memoirs of a geisha. it's a nice movie, i must say although that wer some parts that i thoughtwere quite draggy. another critic from me is that it was love story-ish-like rather than a memoir. i should read the book again, since i last read the book when i was in sec 1. so u can imagine my immaturity at that point of time where i was still unable to comprehend the beauty of th book.
so after that, i made my way back to tampines since i've not prayed asar. rushed to ghufran and i had to met the other friends at 730 at kampung siglap mosque. time check: 630. imagine the hast that i was in. and i still had to buy a gift for searest ellia.
rushed to take a cab to pick azzah up from her house and ran to kg siglap since nuraini was already waiting for us and not in her very best mood. oh i didn't mean we ran to kg siglap from azzah's house. the taxi driver was on the wrong side of the road as he did not turn at a junction to go to marine parade area. i guess all went well after that.
i had fried chiocken rice and roti john special at lagoon east coast. yummy although i felt so bloated at the end. must be the lime juice. then ellia azzah iffah nuraini khaliesah joanna nora farah shareena me khairulamri fauzie fahmie taha hafiz and syarif went to sit by the beach on amri's tikar to cut the cake and eat the tidbits the sweet guys had bought. it was such a beatiful night, with the waves pounding against the breakwater and the sky litterd with stars and the famous Orion's (is that how u spll it) belt. i felt like a fun spoiler when i had to go back at 11 since my parents are really not keen on me staying out so late. anak dara tak boleh balik lambat-lambat, kan?
all in all, i hope thatellia had the greatest time ever, celebrating her belated birthday with us. such a beautiful girl she is, both inside and outside. Happy belated 19th birthday again to you, Ellia!!!
Friday, January 20, 2006
I'm going to nyp's open house tomorrow and maybe watch memoirs of a geisha with my classmates. =) yay, finally out of the house. I guess that's where I'm finally going to pursue my studies after the results have been released. The School of Health Sciences in NYP.
it just riles me up sometimes that people are considering to go into physio or what nots as a back-up plan in case their results are not satisfactory. Maybe it's selfishness on my part, but that's just not fair isn't it? cos it seems to me that going to nyp is a last resort cos number one, u refuse to retake your As or that nus/ntu/smu rejected u as u are just not good enough. U might ask why I'm so uptight about it. Well that's because going to nyp is my first choice and I have no back-up plans whatsoever and nyp certainly does not want students who have no interest whatsoever in the health sciences courses offered. So yes, nyp will it be unless of course some miracle occurs and I happen to do so well for my A levels (read: 3 As and A1 in gp) that I'm able to apply for Ministry of Health scholarship and pursue my dream course, speech therapy. But well, that's not ever going to happen.
I really think i'm on the verge of bankruptcy. Yup,I really need the moolah to pay for my handphone bill. alhamdulillah, I already have a tuition assignment and I'll be starting in feb after chinese new year. The setback is that it's in punggol. But I guess it's time for me to explore that ulu part of Singapore. Basically why I accepted theassignment is because the money is good. 300 bucks per month and I'm teaching two students(siblings, I think) at a time. I can see 150 bucks gone for the first mth since I signed up with a tuition agency.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
new layout
tada! i changed my layout. i guess it's been almost a year since i changed the layout.just want to give a refreshing look to my blog although it's not much. i guess the colour yellow really freshens things up. howells, my throat really hurts a lot and together with my blocked nose, i sound so sengau.
i shall just give up searching for a job. i've sent in thousands of resumes and i shall just wait. maybe i'll strike gold one fine day. yup...i wonder when that day will be. hmmm okay i haven't even bathed. i have to go do so now as i have to accompany my sis to the bank.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
i have a blocked nose and have been sneezing for the past few days and fever comes and goes. seriously, i have been doing nothing other than going online, watch the television and reading lots and lots of books. not that i'm complaining though. =)
it definitely gets boring, bumming around the house and doing nothing but for now, i'm contented. the though of not having anything to worry about really appeals to me. financially, i still get allowannce and it's up to me on how i spend them wiesly, esp with the bus fares and all.
i have certainly been looking around for scholls to releif teach but so far, all the schools that i've called have no vacancies. oh wells, what does that leave me?
i guess i should be contented that i'm enjoying my 6-months break, probably the only break that i get to enjoy in my entire life. so, i better quit moping around and lamenting that i'm unemployed. period.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
i was tearing non-stop the whole of yesterday, not because i was depresseed due to my current state of unemployment. but rather, because of a book that i read. PS, I Love You is the title of the book. it is a story of how a thirty year old woman coped with life after the death of her husband who had a brain tumour. i tell you, it was definitrly heart-wrenching. oh no, just thinking about the story makes me tear.
imagine having your husband leaving you, either death or running away with some other woman. imagine having to be brave and pick up your otherwise shattered life, piecing it together again like a jigsaw puzzle. for me personally, i'm not sure if i have the courage to do that all by myself. i wonder if it's better to lose yuor loved one, ie bf/gf/spouse through death or some other circumstances like a third party or the love between you just faded off. maybe death brings a certan closure but the girief will take months.
going out later to bugis in the evening to meetup with my classmates. how imiss them all.
okay i shall continue my rants later. my dad wants to play sipder on the computer.
Friday, January 13, 2006
went to mj today to collect my cheque then to the banl which was so packed that u can't even enter, back home to pray zuhur and out again to eastpoint to meet azzah, nini, khalies, shareena and ellia. i had a great time with those darlings, man. really do. it made me not think of being jobless and desperately wanting to get employed. sigh....i miss sch so much,, but not the studying part of course.
yesterday went out with azzah, nini, khalies and shafia. we went to bishan and then town....and walked and walked around. fried mars bars is really yummy. yum yum. i even had two servings of it. i'm spending money like as if i have bill gates to sponsor me.
as of now, i'm just going to teach tuition and i realise that i'm such a bad mouther of companies. what's with me getting into companies that offer jobs thare are of no interest to me? looks at my pathethic posb passbook..i need money.
okay i guess this entry is so shallow...but hey, money makes the world go round. whatever it is, i need the money for the stupid and rather exorbitant transportation in singapore.
Monday, January 09, 2006
nine days into 2006 but this is only but my first entry of the year. where have i dissappeared to? nowhere, really. just not in the mood to update.
right now, i'm just sitting at home, waiting for a job to suddenly matrialise in front of me. seriously, i've given up on trying to find a job as i believe that the harder you try, the more it will not come to you. so, my motto for now is take a step back and enjoy this time to be free of stress and worries(results not included). on the bright side, this will only be the time when i'm really, really free. then it's back to studying and then, tadaaa, the working world. which reminds me that i'm called down for an interview on wednesday. haizz, another day of spending money on transport. it really sucks to pay adult fare, isn't it?
since i have nothing to do to pass time, i have set out a few things that i would like to do:
1) start reading more books - fiction or non-fiction for information and to be more imaginative (read: to prevent my brain cells from rotting)
2) start reading my bio notes again as it might just help me in my studies later. and yes, work my brains too.
3) to be a better Muslim and start reading the Quran more frequently and not merely Yasin as and when i feel like it. i know it's bad but i really rhink that i touch my notes and textbooks more than i touch the Holy Quran for four years.
4) be a volunteer at Mendaki although i've already signed up as one but never volunteered at an event. i really would like to be a camp facilitator...that has always been my dream...
maybe i shall start taking up tuition assignments as extra income for the rest of the year even when i resume my studies.
