lives in her own utopian world. loves the blessed life that she has surrounded by friends and family.Gemz.Cam-whore.Queen of Blurness. Thrives in sarcasm.
fathiah_born1987@hotmail.com
road race was just bleh just now. i didn't even run...couldn't be bothered to. furthermore, my ankle gave problems again. i think my sprained seems to get worse as the day passes. i can't even walk very long without the pain searing through the bone of my ankle..
okay some pics....
oh yah, i think i just made a fool of myslef in the canteen during recess just now by 'pole-dancing' in front of mr wong. well, i dertainly didn't know what i did was outrageous okay..it was just so impromptu. and my beloved friends just can't stop laughing at me...actually for that matter, i'm always laughed at by my friends. haha, i'm like the unofficial clown of 04S205...my job is to entertain my classmates..it's as if i'm working in a circus like that.
odac on wed was fun...cos my group was the one who planned the activity...haha..act it was more of like yours truly and caroline's activity. what to do..we just have too much creative juices in our brains.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
hmmmm
hari raya haji was okay i guess..went to my maternl and paternal granparents' house and then to my cousin's house wehre we just crapped and talked and going ga-ga over the Lions. haha. i certainly ate a lot until i had an upset stomach.
on sat, went to sch for odac. haish...doing the proposal for wed's activity. i'm kind of proud to say that the game is very fun and yes...i'm a sadist...so yup, u pple can guess what kind of games my group came out with...
the best part was meeting my oh so wonderful freinds - huds,kiran ramya and joey. watched meet the fockers...what a hilarious movie. wanna watch shall we dance sometime later....
ooh did i tell u i'mreally sick of school. such a mundane and monotonous routine..but i shall be patient and persevere on. focus and determination shall be my mantra for 2005..nothing else matters i guess at this point of time when u're bogged down with so many things...
heh i dun know why i'm writing this but yah, *arocks*...i'm going crazy....
Monday, January 17, 2005
Finally, the Lions roared again
hiashh, what more can i say. the Lions were just superb yesterday...no kidding and i particularly loved Indra Sahdan's goal. truly enjoyed myself at the stadium. the fans around me were just superb too..so on and enthu, what more can i ask right?
pple, u should just have been at the stadium..the cheering, the constant boooing at the referee tho i thought he controlled the game quite well, and of course the oh-so-famous Kallang wave. it was simply breathtaking...with all the stamping of feet when the wave is about to reach my section. the seats that i got or rather managed to sueeze in was simply spectacular. sitting at exactly the halfway line, where most of the action is, plus the view was fantastic and clear. heh..my sis, bro syaf and i were not really sitting on the benches. we were literally sitting on the stairs. hah, the uncomfort that pple go through just to have a good view of the field and yes, the players.
all of it seems rather poignant now since it'll be the last time the national soccer team will play at the national stadium before it's closed down for renovation. haisshh...but then it was indeed a wonderful way to 'close' the stadium. =D. and i certainly dun regret going to the stadium for the match against Myanmar and Indonesia.
okay, enough of soccer. back to reality. i still have tons of work to do. aiyoh, the gp essay is making my life so difficult. thank goodness school starts late tomorrow.
Friday, January 14, 2005
Mercy Relief
today my class did cip at mercy relief, helping to pack food for the tsunami victims. i enjoyed myself actually although it was super tiring. imagine standing for 4 hours straight. nonetheless, i felt a sense of fulfillment, finally able to do my part for the tsunami victims.
oh yay, ms huda treated the class to pizza hut after that..haha..it was so chaotic...and of course i'm always 'bullied' by my classmates. they just love to pick on me..in the joking kind of way. not that i mind at all..i'm not that petty, okay.
i just love my classmates, u know. they are the ones that motivate me to go to sch everyday. sometimes i feel that it's quite a good idea to have an eye candy or two in sch. haha..u know, just to make u look forward to go to sch. heh. *cheeky grin*. even if i have an eye candy, i'm quite good at not making it so blatantly obvious. of courselah..cos i'll just die if it's very obvious. and it's definitely a no-no to tell someone who has a lot of contacts in sch cos u never know whom she/he will tell. i admit that there are some pple whom i think will not be wise to tell your secrets to...but it seldom occurs to me cos i trust most of my friends. :)
oh i'm made the guinea pig in class..forver teased, bullied and often being imitated....hmmm, what's new right? but uahlah, my classmates are so cute and i love them loads.
Monday, January 10, 2005
Poignant
seeing this just made me tear. how fast time flies indeed.
It has been a year since arwah Tok left us....but his loss is still deeply felt.... some part of his life still lingers around....in his children ...in his wife...in his siblings..in his grandchildren....
Somehow things have changed....we are no longer the same anymore...Its like there is tinge of subtle sadness lingering around us....a man so loved that his death tore us apart ...leaving an emptiness that cannot be filled.....
We are all still grieving...but grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith,
It is the price of love...our love for him...
Every day...he would ask to make sure he has his wudhu'.....every day he ask to dress him in his nicest clothes....coz he said he wants to look his best when he meets GOD......
Every day he would ask what day it was......coz he said he always prays to GOD that he will leave us on a Friday....so everyday he would ask what day it was....
Except for that day he passed away.....he did not ask...
It was as if he already knew he will be leaving us soon.........
On his last day...that very last few moments....he woke up from his sleep during subuh.....and sat up on his bed.....then he smiled......lay his head down....and then he left us forever.....
He was smiling... as if he knew he was going to a better place.....
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Khairul Amri is touted as one of Singapore's brightest young footballers. Exciting, talented and extremely confident, he is a new Fandi Ahmad in the making, according to several football coaches.
At just 19, the forward has already made his mark at national level. Lions coach Radojko Avramovic threw him into the pre-World Cup qualifier against Oman in Muscat and in the friendly against Malaysia last month.
Khairul has also been getting personal attention from national assistant coach Fandi, as he works to transform the raw gem into the finished article.
It is an astonishing transformation for a teenager who, just three years ago, almost quit the game because of his family's precarious financial situation.
Penniless, the player did not even own a decent pair of football boots.
At the Jalan Besar Stadium, the unassuming forward, who has four other siblings, recounted the traumatic years of his childhood.
"It has not been easy for me," he said. "My father has not been working over the last few years and it is hard for me to see my mother struggle to make ends meet.
"Her small salary helps pay the bills but even then, it is never enough."
His mother, 39-year-old Mariam Salleh, has been working in his aunt's food stall since his father lost his job.
With his family of seven crammed into a three-room HDB apartment in Ang Mo Kio, the sofa in the living room is where Khairul sleeps usually.
He felt so guilty that in 2001, the striker contemplated giving up football to take up a part-time job. He also decided to quit his studies at the Institute of Technical Education.
"I did not feel good that my mother had to work, pay all the bills and still had to give me money to go to school and football training," said the Young Lions forward.
"I was contemplating working in a fast-food restaurant to help the family."
In 2001, after being called up to the national U-16 squad, he received a $200 allowance from the Football Association of Singapore to buy boots. Khairul gave the money to his mother instead.
That left the player with a torn pair of boots.
Former international and under-16 coach R Suriamurthi recalled: "There was this day when he turned up for national training, which was just a few days before he was scheduled to play in the Schools 'B' division final.
"What I saw really broke my heart. He was taping up his boots with scotch tape just before training.
"I asked him what happened and he explained to me his family's situation.
"It really touched me that despite all his troubles at home, he still showed dedication and determination in training."
Suriamurthi drove Khairul to a sports shop the following day and bought him a pair of boots. The striker repaid the coach's faith in him by scoring a hat-trick in the final.
Khairul said: "Can you imagine if I had played with my tattered boots? I would have been humiliated if they'd come apart during the match.
"I dedicated that win to my coach. If he didn't help me then, I think I would have just stopped playing football."
As a member of the Young Lions squad, he currently receives a $600 monthly allowance from the Football Association of Singapore.
Khairul, who has scored five goals this season, said the money has helped to relieve the financial burden on his family.
He said: "I give more than half to my mum and I use the rest for my own expenses.
"I have been told to be patient and in a few years' time, I will earn much more. I am looking forward to that.
"But now, what's important to me is I'm earning a salary, which means I can just concentrate on playing football."
sighz...so sad right...and to think he scored the second goal against indonesia.....
Singapore.......
and so the Lions won 3-1 over much-favoured Indonesia. To tell u the truth, i was kind of surprised actually. after watching so many matches featuring Indonesia, i can safely say that Indonesia was not their usual self yesterday. One question played in my mind, "Is Singapore very good or is it that Indonesia is just lousy?" My answer, none of the above. heh...singapore is not good...as in they do not have individual talents or fast runners who can stop the speedy indonesians, but s'pore players has aerial supremity since the defenders are all very tall.
in all my childhood years of watching the glory of the Malaysia Cup days and observing the development of the national team, this team in the Tiger Cup Finals 2004/05 is different. Veteran players are no longer preferred, there's no longer politics in the team. This current team has a heart and determination as well as tactical discipline. They work for the ball, they win the ball when they lose posession and they work as a team, not on individual talents, as can be seen from the previous teams.
okay, i better stop talking abt soccer. singapore won but i think the 2 goal deficit is not an impossible task for the indonesians to claw and fight back...as can be seen from the match against malaysia where they scored 4 goals in 35 minutes. alright, there i go again abt soccer....
that's it, man...i'm definitely going to the national stadium next sunday altho i have a maths test the following day. i'm so going to buy the grandstand tickets. it'll be more expensive but heck...cos if the Lions were to lift the trophy, the players will be facing the grandstand..huh..so there's a better view of the players...heh...
that's it, i think Baihakki is history. i kind of like Aide Iskandar but he's married. Khairul Amri seem to be improving each time i see him play..not to mention the second goal that he scored against indonesia.
oh yah, anyone wants to go to the SAJC carnival on feb 19th, Sat? I can order for you the tickets...heh..that was a public announcement on behalf of syaf...*cheeky grin*.
i still have tons of work to do but i dun have the energy. the flu and cough are making me weak and the medicine is not working at all. all it does is to make me sleep, resulting in a loss of precious time. so many tests coming up, so may things to catch up on..and it's only the start of sch...well serves me right for not making full use of the hols..but who cares..i enjoyed the hols so much..that'll be the last holiday which i can really enjoy and slack..after that, it's hard work all the way.
Thursday, January 06, 2005
okay..it's the start of the new year and everyone is reborn, starting on a clean slate of paper.Some may have made their new year resoloutions. In my opinion, resolutions are meant to be broken anyway. Nevertheless, i shall just pen down my resolutions here. Actually, my resolutions are very simple, that is to stay focused throughout the year, do not daydream too much, do not procrastinate, get excellent grades for my a-levels and of course, be a better daughter, cousin, friend and Muslimah. =D
my new year celebrations was fun..spending precious time with my darly cousins before all of us get too busy when the year kicks in. THe sleepover was fun and i had a whale of a time, enjoying it tremendously.i'm just too lazy to elaborate. we took millions of pictures, went to jalan kayu for dinner, then to kent ridge park...the so-called "hanging bridge" and finally to west coast park...and came back at abt 1.30am. Imagine 8 pple squeezing inside the small Mitsubishi Colt..
tmr is eaxctly a year since my grandfather left us for a better world. really..how fast time flies. my family is having this zikir thing at the Mydin Mosque in Kembangan...hence i'm unable to attend the campfire.
oh yah.i enjoyed myself at the singapore-myanmar match. the atmosphere is just different if u watch the match live. quite scary also since i was sitting quite close to the "rowdy" Myanmar fans. but all that will not deter me from watching the finals of the tiger cup next week even though i have a maths lecture test the following week...heh
okay, that's it for now. i dun think that i'll ber updating much in the coming months...so, just stay tuned..
