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Sunday, September 19, 2004

some thoughts....

What is life?
I ask myself everyday
It is a journey
In which we choose the way

We may choose the easy path
The road to mischief and crime
Alas! Here on this walk
There is nothing but filth and grime

Or we may choose the alternate path
The road to moral and spiritual goodness
Though, the walk is long and hard
In the end, we attain eternal happiness

It is up to us to choose
But we must be careful not to lose
It is sharp like a knife
Losing this game of Life

things i've learnt....

i've learnt that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change....

i've learnt that no matter how good a friend is, they're gonna hurt u once in a while and and you must forgive them for that

i've learnt that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up

i've learnt that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived

i've learnt that no matter how much i care, some pple don't care back...

i've learnt that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you you will find the strength to help

i've learnt that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever

and a lot of other things in a span of 9 mths....

i seriously haven't been doing anything this weekend except for my failed attempts to do my maths and chem tutorial..haissh so irritaitng...i can't seem to do any of the questions....

it seems so nice to pamper ur face with facial mask..been such a long time since i did that and somehow, i just felt the need to do sth to my face and tada...i put on the neglected facial mask on the dressing table....haha...the feeling is so nice and my skin is soft and smooth now...:) but the skin on my arm is peeling...:(

oh yah, was reading some articles in Cleo and came acroos some interesting facts.....

Britisish researchers at the University of London have found that women who remain single all their lives have better mental health than their male counterparts. But married women women tend to be mentally better off than their single sisters. The breakup of a r'ship seems to do a lot more damage to the woman's mental health than the man's.

Women in long-term r'ships are healthier cos they are less likely to smoke, drink heavily, use illicit drugs and are more likely to exercise.....

Psychologists have found out that nasty fights are hazardous to women's health and that women suffering from marital stress are theree times more likely to have repeated heart attacks....But a happy marriage can help women avoid heart disease and strokes and has better heart health as compared to a single woman. Nonetheless, a single woman is still better off than an unhappily married one. And that's probably b'cos the latter has nowhere else to run to if she's frustrated with her husband. =)

So the question is: Is a long term r'ship a gd health investment...? Haha...seriously i dunno...but it's essential to understand there is a distinction between a happy r'ship and a bad one, i guess.

yay..i changed by skin again...feel a sense of satisfaction....yup i haven't slept yet cos i was editing the new skin...=)


memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
fathiah?
i'm utterly disgusted at some of the social etiquettes displayed by guys says:
yup?
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
i miss you.
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
im gg thru this really horrible time right now
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
and whenever im in schl
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
i wish u were thr to be my partner
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
so yeah
memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
u mean alot to me, even tho i hate everyone right now


memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
hey remember how whenever during history or ss

memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
we'd look at each other and say 'bye!"

memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
and we'd know exactly what each other meant

memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
then we'd go off into our own world, pretending to listen?

i'm utterly disgusted at some of the social etiquettes displayed by guys says:
yah..oh man...i remember all that....in fact, i really miss those times....

memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
haha yeah. and our reccesses whr all we'd be eating wud be guava or curry puff

memory. all alone in the moonlight. says:
and i miss ur mum's curry puffs!

i'm utterly disgusted at some of the social etiquettes displayed by guys says:
hahaa..when i meet u...i'll give u some okay?

that's azzah for u...the angel who was there by my side throughout my 4 yrs in tkgs......gosh i'm tearing already cos i really miss her so much....and i miss my other girlfriends too....

i miss tkgs and everything to do with it...nuff said

Saturday, September 18, 2004

finally, i'm able to update. blogger's going crazy...i can't even update just now..guess my patience and perseverance paid off after all...:)

it felt kind of good staying at home on a Saturday...actually..it's been a long while since i stayed at home for the whole day. hmm...woke up at 11 today. oh yah, i watched this malay movie called "Hingga Hujung Nyawa" at abt 1 am this morning. the story is so sad...my sisters' eyes were so swollen and they refused to sleep...the soundtrack's sad too but somehow i cannot find the song to download...basically the movie's abt family betrayals, parents' sacrifice, perseverance and patience...a melodramatic and tragic story but still nice to watch....

i think i spent the whole day eating today. my mum made this fresh orange juice and this dessert called suji. if i'm not wrong it's samolina in english i think..damn nice.....

went to swensen's yesterday after school with the usual pple..no names mentioned and ordered a giant earthquake. and i'm utterly disgusted at some of the social etiquettes displayed by guys...not all the guys who were there but most of them. tiff shared my sentiments too...dun know if she wrote abt that incident in the blog...

i'm too lazy to write abt the incident but yah i was pissed at the whole thing. tiff and i were making sarcastic remarks abt some basic social etiquettes...abt how we used to attend these courses back then in our secondary schools and how other schs do not attend these kind of courses. yah..i know it's kind of bad lah but we just can't help it..maybe we're just too petty..but who cares...? everyone has rights, rite?

sometimes i just think that guys are super insensitive..howells..it's just their nature i guess...maybe i'm just a feminist..actually, i am a feminist....a big-time feminist...maybe being in a girls' school for 4 yrs does make u be cynical of guys....

here's to the men whom we love and here's to the men who love us. but since the men we love do no love us, screw the men, here's to us.

haha..just had to write that down....hmm yah that's abt it...

Friday, September 17, 2004

hmmm in the school library now waiting for the rest to finish lessons. i finish school at 12.30 today.:) finally, one early day. ussually finish school at 4.10 on fridays but there's no more afternoon pes now. so my class shifted our gp tutorial to monday...i really like the new time table. the latest day now is only 5...35 minutes do make a lot of diferent, i guess.

yesterday, my class played push volleyball during pe...a superbly fun game man...yah but constance sprained her ankle. i was actually being nice to support her but mr chua had to say "can someone taller help support constance?" yah he's trying to imply that i'm short ah...haha but it's okaylah i guess. i mean i'm immune to it already. i know that i'm vertically challenged but then the number of brain cells a person has is inversely proportional to his/her height....:)

yup..had tuition yesterday night. tuition never fails to make me have a headache and it always zaps away all my energy....i realise that i'm so not a tv person and it doesn't matter to me whether i watch tv or not..no loss for me....

got back my chem test result...i guess it was okay for me considering that i didn't really put in a lot of effort as compared to the previous test which i failed horribly of course. sometimes i think it's better off not to study so hard cos somehow i'll do better. i dunno why but i'm scared of gp..somehow my gp is really deteriorating. haissh....oh yah i need to get at least 43.7 for maths to get an a level pass...i dun even know whether i can achieve that or not.

i hate my life man..it's so mundane and monotonous...okay i'm getting sleepy. maybe i should take a light nap..yah make full use of the air-con in the library........

Saturday, September 11, 2004

erggh...my face is peeling and it's quite bad ah...hmmm...the one week holidays isn going to be over soon. my days are literally spent at the airport...studying..hai but somehow, i dun feel a sense of accomplishement...well...i dunno ah...

and i'm totally broke...everyday, money is spent, eating lunch at the airport....haha i've been eating at the staff canteen for the past 3 days or so...haha i've seriously been eating a lot...i'm such a food monster and a dessert monster too....:)

yup that's about it...how i've been spending my hols....to the j2s, all the best for your prelims yah...dun get too stressed up and u guys will jo just fine....:)

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

i'm seriously burnt man...as in literally. my hands, legs and face. all because of kayaking...yup 8 hrs in the sea...erggh. i swear i'm never ever going to kayak again. stupid sea-sickness...wah i felt like puking when i was in the sea...cannot even enjoy myself. i'm dead tired now man. the fibre glass is stinging my skin so much...it hurts like crazy.

just now, when i was sleeping in the train, it felt like i was kayaking. it felt as if i was bobbing up and down...together with the waste. furthermore, i felt that my bag was actually the cockpit of the kayak. oh man, i'm still feeling giddy now..still feeling as if i'm still kayaking...erggh...i just hate the sea..or rather i have a fear of the sea. i dunno why but i'm just eccentric. i just think that the sea is a very dangerous and frighteningly mysterious. u never know what goes on in the waters...haha maybe i'm just paranoid after reading all the stories about Bermuda Triangle. on the other hand, i just find the sky so amazing and interesting...it's just so nice and peaceful to gaze at the sky at night....okay...maybe i'm just mad....

i miss the 2e3 gang although we just met up last week. only maanged to talk to azzah for a short while over msn..i hate it when my friends are feeling down but i cannot do anything tocheer them up. i miss azzah so much...miss the good old days together. hmm we'll catch up after promos and when pw is finally over.

i'm going to sleep now....i think the sea sickeness is getting too much for me to take.....

Sunday, September 05, 2004

i've uploaded the pictures that i took on love meridian day and also when i went out with my secondary school friends on tuesday. have fun looking through them...


Click here for more pics....

anw, yesterday had some drama while tiff, me, sarah, saiful, denzil, jun jie, sufyan and luthfi were eating at lj tampines....yah apparently jun jie was pissed at something sufyan said....then there was some tension between them..yah...

inital plans to study after odac was cancelled cos we only finished odac at abt 5...yup...maths thest was okay but i'm not confident of my answers....failed my chem badly but i'm so proud of my bio tes...27/30..not to sound boastful or anything but first time i ever got so high for a test this year..kind of a morale bosster for me...:)

didn't go to religious class again today...my mum made a big fuss out of it and she was like complaining and complaining like how i can always come home late and go kayaking but i cannot sit in the mosque for a mere 2 hours, yadda yadda yadda......

my aunt fell down and she feels giddy and stff even after going to the doctor...hmmm i just hope that she'll get well soon...supposed to go to her house today for the weekly family gathering but now, it's veen changed to my another aunt's house which is just a block away.

okaylah that's all for now...back to studying...hahahA