Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry"; not "where are you' but "I'm right here"; not "how could you" but "I understand"; not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."
ENGAGED
The True measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are for each other.
NOT-SO-SINGLE
Those who have "special someone" .... Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
NAIVE
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble; be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair,understand and try not to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain.
POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
AFRAID TO CONFESS
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.
STILL HOLDING ON
A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go.
SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it would come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but oftentimes it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to whom it's worth. So take your time and choose the best. : )
Romance was a combination of dreams and harsh reality. Love was a delicate balance of Realism and Fantasy. The two perspectives were not such opposites. They were compliments. Realism versus Fantasy was not to be but Realism and Fantasy became one.
Nothing is certain. If we can accept simple things like the ‘fact’ that we are who we are and we are where we are, then why is the idea as beautiful as someone being born for you to share life with and become one with, so unacceptable?
Since we never know what life is going to throw at us next, my suggestion is to indulge. Let yourself be swept off your feet and let someone make you happy. Love and be loved.
Every story has its ending, but in life every ending is just a new beginning.
Don't cry because its over, smile because it happened.
i really feel like a complain queen today. i dunno what's with me today but i'm in such a bad mood ...everything just pisses me off...maybe it's just the monday blues.....
i was very pissed with my sis today cos she was like hogging the mirror when she was like 3/4 ready. she kept hogging the mirror when i told her to move away, she said i was so troublesome..like hello, who's the one who's being a nuisance here?
well i thought that my frustration would just end there, but no...i was late for school....altho i reached at 7.32 and the freaking assembly started early today..wah i'm so mad...just that thought makes me sick....
okie, fine i dun mind running 2 rounds around the track cos it felt very refreshing after that....but i seriously cannot stand how the sch punishes us....we're not in secondary school anymore, for goodness' sake. u cannot keep on controlling our lives and expecting us to conform to the stupid rules that u've created....mjc is such a control freak....even tkgs was not like that...
"All u need to do is to get out of your house 10 mins in order not to be late." what rubbish..going out 10 mins earlier doesn't make a difference at all cos there's no bus for me to board to transport me to tamp interchange..so what if i go out 10 mins earlier....i'll still take the same bus and when i reach the mrt station, i'll have to wait for 9 mins...not just 4 or 5 mins...but 9 MIN!!!!
"WE're meeting the Transitlink pple to sort out the problem." now then u want to meet those pple. why can't u meet them last week, last term or even last year when the problem persists. Why now....oh because the school just got this very inspiring and refreshing idea from thin air...wow...i'm totally amazed..*a rousing round of applause, ladies and gentlemen*
soemtimes i think that these teachers dun understand...they dun noe that 15 min woth of sleep can be so precious to a student who's got no life but academics....and of course they dun understand how it's like rushing and waiting for the bus...when practically the whole of singapore is rushing to their workplace or respective schools....because these freaking teachers do not EVEN take the public transport...rich what...big what...cos they have their own cars....
pple might argue that i'm late. full stop. end of story. there isn't a need to complain...but do i care? and yes, i have such a big ego that i refuse to admit that i'm late, cos that's totally a fact....i feel so sorry for my classmates who had to endure my incessant complaints and what nots....
i'm just so pissed today. erggh...hope tmr will be a better day...on hindsight, i dun think it will be any better....2 periods of emmeline foo..i can die...she's sure gonna pick on me...everytime call my name...
i dunno why but i'm pissed during maths tutorial today...some of them were quite rude to my maths tutor.....okie maybe it's just me being very peety...but whatever......
my eldest sis is another pain in the ass....i asked her some questions on biostatistics and the only thing that comes out of her mouth is 'i dun know'...she didn't even bother to stop for a while and think....what's the point of even asking her in the first place? thank u so much for that..it was very enlightening for me.........
okie i think i better stop complaining and wallow in anger and frustration..just hope that it will be a better day tmr.....
Hate is baggage...Life is too short to be pissed off all the time...
i miss my cousins and my secondary scool friends so much. plus the first three mnths days....it was pure bliss. i missed the times when rohani, ana, iffah and i would just it in the canteen and talk nonesense, not wanting to go home cos there's nothing to do...no hw, pw etc...tho iffah and rohani are still in mj, we seldom talk, each of us busy with our own stuffs. erggh, i sometimes wonder why life must be like that, individuals scurrying frantically in pursuit of success...failure is not acceptable.
i miss all of them...azzah, ana, cassie, denise, nurul, syaf, nabila, rashez, hazwani, ellia, zawiah, fadilah, sal, shareena, iffah, rohani, ili, farhana saleh, just to name a few. i miss tkgs a lot. the pple especially, the school spirit, the vibrancy of the school life and of couse the endless time we stayed back in sch to do class deco, cheerleading and zany green parade. of course, i still remember how we used to rush to the toilet the moment the bell rang just to hang out and talk, the endless talks we've had abt other pple(haha), our ambitions, aspirations and marriage....u noe the usual gril talk........those were the days when i was still a carefree girl.....
how could i even foget the time when we were clinging on to the very minute hope just to be in the bahas...even tho the odds were against us. talking to everyone - madam khoo, the principal and the organisers and to think that only madam khoo, our dear OM, who was the only one who supported us to compete in the bahas. to make my stay more colourful, i remember the time when we wanted to do a proposal on a funfair..for the TKGS School Building FUnd.....did it in 2 weeks flat....but whatever happened to the proposal i myself do not know even tho we submitted it....
and to azzah, my darling angel who helped and gave me words of encouragement, ensuring that i pay attention during lessons. haha...the times when we were just stoning thinking abt two special someones, dreaming they will sweep us off our feet........our knights in shining armour*smiles dreamily*.
for old times' sake,
we cannot all be heroes and thrill a hemisphere
with a great daring venture sone deed that mocks at fear
but we can fill a lifetime with kindly acts and true
there's always noble service for noble souls to do
we're not all blessed with beauty nor everyone with brain
but each from every other has something good to gain
so let us make an effort to keep it as a rule
that each one needs the other within the Katong school
so let us fill the hours with minutes truly spent
in helping one another towards a true content
so let us serve in homour and work for selfless fame
for credit of our coubtry and glory of her name
gosh, i really miss the meaningful school song..just look at the lyrics.a very calm and soothing hymm-like tune...love it to bits....haha...oh yah, we used to sing the last 4 words of the school song during assembly...
to my cousins,i really miss u all so much. it's really been a very long time since we last went out. we're going to the awallah dondang thiny next week rite? hope all of us can make it...........love u all loads. *muacks*
Deepest Thoughts
i have so much angst in me....and it is all because of this stupid idiot who's out there to irritate me. this irritating person has the words 'SLAP ME" written on his forehead and he has a slappable, kickable and punchable face. he claims that he's doing a lot by doing stupids noms and he contributes a lot. he's supposedly the saviour, hero and the knight in shining armour *sarcasm intended*.....what rubbish. for your info, i am here to tell u that u don't get things done and u only complain that we are moving at a very slow pave and yes, u suck to the very core. as u can see, i am now a dormant volcano which can explode any time, even a snap of your miserable finger, my hero. my patience, my saviour is certainly running out, in case u haven't noticed that i'm always giving u the cold shoulder. and yes, my knight, i'm not the only one who's pissed at u....all the rest are...if u're too blind and caught up in your stinky life.
phew, had my say, haven't i? and thanks huda for willingly listening to my ramblings of discontent and dissatisfaction at that stupid idiot for 50 min....yup....that shows at how frustrated and irritated i am at this stupid idiot...u get the picture........
u noe, i really feel that i am a useless friend sometimes. deep down, u noe your friend has a ceretain characteristic and u noe there's an underlying reason for that. somehow, u have an intuition what that problem might be but u yourself are not sure of it. u want to help your friend deeply but he or she just downplays your concern and act of caring. yes, it hurts but all the more u want to reach out to your friend but the problem is that he or she doesn't want to open up, preferring to keep his/her problems to him(her)self. that's the hard part because that friend that u really treasure is making everyone around him/her very worried. sounds familiar huh?
haizz, that friend might wonder why he/she should tell his/her problems cos no one would undertsand him/her unless the confidante has experienced it before. on my part, it may be true but sometimes it doesn't hurt to lighten the burden of the mind and heart by telling your problems to trusted pple.
well, i dunno why i wrote all those things above.......
a lot of pple have been very pissed or are in a bad mood this week. hmmm, can't really blame them for that rite? because everyone has their fair share of ups and downs....including myself.
just finished watching Hum-Tum for the second time in less than 24 hours. love the story so much. haizz, it's just so different from other hindi movies...so many nice quotes from the movie...
okie, enough of this oohing and aahing over the movie. haf to do pw now...notes of meeting but i just feel so tired to do it.....hmmm shouldn't have volunteered to do so many things..okie i'm bad....but hey, i only got home at arnd 9...and i'm dead tired now. just hope there's no physical training for odac tmr.....i'm too lethargic to run....
sch was okie i guess....i hate tuesdays....it's a very long day for me....erggh....oh yah, had chem spa just now....it was doable, i must say. now, my thursdays will be packed with remedials and more remedials..how nice.....
oh yah, kak efah, when are u free? i need your ic to collect my sim card....and update your blog okie tho i noe u're kinda busy rite now.......yup the power of blogging...a new way to keep in touch with my cousins....
met khalisah and shafia at cik ayu's house of all places....haha..i had just finished tuition and went up to pray, after praying, tada....they were there....haha...so long never see her man...
hmm i dunno why but i'm easily irritable these past week...pw blues i guess..oh yah did i tell u how much i hate his guts and seeing his face....i just feel like slapping his face. i hate it when he talks in that voice of his....the i-know-it-all voice...watever cos he doesn't even know what's going on..slaaaaaaaaappppppppppt the face.....
Sometimes one look is enough
Sometimes it takes many meetings
Life's a long while
okie...i officially announce that i'm really sick of pw....okie, not really sick of pw but sick of one irritating group member....no names mentioned. i guess my patience is really running out....a surprise cos i can safely say that i have a realtively high tolerance level.
call me weird but i actually enjoy doing notes of meeting..haha...it's really fun to crap, u noe. i mean my group doesn't always write down what we discussed during meeting...who on earth would do that right? i mean if u haf sth to discuss, so be it..all our meeting are informal anw....stupid pw.....
and the stupid lit review is due next fdriday. looks like i have to dedicate another week solely for pw....every spare time and every ounce of energy was spent on pw this week and this routine will go on next week....aiyoh....
hmmm i shall start to improve my fitness by doing gym wok every week on fridays after pe....maybe i should start running too...well, see first....
yesterday, went to macritchie reservoir to trek 1 km.....no big deal considering that i had trekked 25 km before....haha,,,show off a little bit....then went to slack at starbucks at raffles city and started to tell ghost stories....freaky man....
the irritating part was that all the ghost stories occur in the lift....and it doesn't help that i have to take the lift every day, all the way to the 11th storey and go down the stairs to the 9th storey...i was that scared when i went home yesterday....haha...to add matters worse my block is very quiet....was hoping that some neighbour that i recognise will go in the lift with me but no, i was all alone....
but now, as i come to think of it, it was very stupid to get scared cos the more u are scared, the more your mind will play tricks on you.....
just now, my realatives came to my house...my maternal side for the weekly family gathering....towards the end we watched the vcd on my cousins's wedding last august...haha it was very sweet i tell you...
tears were already collecting in my eyes when i saw my late grandfather in the video.....and i noticed that there was this silence when the camera zoomed in on him.....i dunno if my other cousins noticed it....
then it hit on me that my cousin's wedding was the one and only one that my late grandfather had the chance to attend.....he still has 24 more weddings to go but God loves him more than we do...somehow, the video made me miss him so much...
i just got back my GP paper just now. i don't know whether it's good or bad, but i think it's bad. sometimes i think i am always never satisfied with my results. maybe i have very high expectations of myself, but again, who doesn't, right? i shall try to write in proper English from now on.
jc life is getting tough. hah, i dunno..but i'm just scared that i will not make it for promos and i certainly do not want to get retained. i guess the mid-year exams were really a wake-up call for me to buck up and stop slacking around. it's really pathetic when u only have one A level pass out of 3 subjectts.
i'm seriously starting to do my tutorials and paying attention during lectures...haha it's hard and challenging, considering that i'm a lazy bum and have a short attention span.
so far, i've managed to do my tutorials consistently....and of course, i really feel a sense of accomplishment. i guess it really helps if you do your tutorials and pay attention...and of course read your lecture notes at home after sth new is being taught.....
enough of this rambling...watching anugerah now...this particular contestant is very good man....
i wonder how i'm gonna survive 1 mth without my hp man....kinda feel lost..hmm but a month will fly by very soon. it amazes me so much how i lost my phone...watever..at least i suspended my line already tho my new sim card will be the same no.
i'm so pisssed man cos i cannot find the usb port to upload pictures in my digicam. and my dear sister doesn't even know were she puts it and now she's having a camping trip somewhere in kl.
anw got back my mid-yr results. it was horrible and horrendous man...flunked it as i expected.
i'm so exhausted. just had to run a total of 2.4km during odac just now and 2 rounds of circuit...wooopeedooo...almost died. this is what u get if u haven't been exercising for a very long, long time.
the fun part was the ice andwater game...haha..we played for like 15 mins and it seemed like eternity. as usual, i was screaming while playing the game...cannot help it lah..reflex action....haha
i had a splendid time with my cousins at kak effa's house yesterday. my cousins and i went to her house starightaway after our religious class. basically, we spent our time slacking arnd and laughing. haha yup...our times spent together is never spent without laughter.
when we reached there, we took some time to cool down..mind u the weAther was super ho, prayed zuhur then went down to watch this malay vcd, Pompuan Pontianak dan dot dot dot...as with all malay ghost stories, it was so lame and got draggy towards the end. but there were some parts that were totally funny..
we went back up to kak effa's room..to the comfort of the air-conditioner adn slacked again...haha...we were all lying down and some of them were even closing their eyes....
the food that my aunt cooked yesterday was super yummylicious,,nasi briyani. i dun really like nasi briyani that much especially the ones that we get from some nasi amal thing but the nasi briyani was excetional yesterday..plus with the papadam and ayam masak merah...haha...i'm such a glutton man
in addition, my cousin-in-law-to-be made suji which was super fantastic as well...haha...after eating, we spent the rest of the time laughing and having a competition to see who will laugh first...hahaha
then towards the end after ishak, we just sat down and talked about marriage and children..that was just so nice...haha..i can just imagine all of us going out one day in the future with strollers and our child/children in tow...haha it will be super kecoh and need proper planning....
hmmmm if i have children on my own one day, i would have such great pleasure in dressing them up...haha...into hunks and babes..haha
okie i'm going out later today with my cousins(again?) and bringing little nash and muhammad to pasir ris park....they are such adorable kids, u noe....haha.....
i'm so full now..just finished eating fried rice from istanbul and drinking bubble tea...haha at the rate i'm devouring food, i'm seriously putting on weight man...haha i cqan feel it already.
sometimes i think that sitting at home can be detrimental to your health. with nothing to do at home, u'll just tend to go to the kitchen and search for food. after eating, u'll be so bored that u go to sleep. sounds familiar right? hahha..this is exactly what i've been doing for the past three days or so..i've seriously been sleeping and eating a lot. going out doesn't help too cos it is always a must to eat whenever u go out with friends, cousins,etc. also, food nowadays ae very expensive, they cost more than half a ten dollar note....just look at Mcdonalds...u get what i mean....
i just realise that i want to buy lots of things but i'm broke. sighz...really need to save money...to pay my handphone bills and yes, i pay for my own hp bills....hmmm, i must stop spending unnecessarily, must distinguish between my needs and wants...but girls will always be girls...i always buy things on impulse but surprisingly i never regretted buying those things...haha
oh yah luthifi said tha only 10% of the cohort got an A level pass for chem and only 3 pple got a B...haha...now how can this pple can even a b..haha..no surprise tho at the figures...the tutors are really out to kiill us...not our fault
oh yah there's this psychotic guy who has been reading my cousin's blog and he knows all abt us...and the coward thing to do is that he never tags...but sent an e-mail to my cousin..how he likes to read our blogs, how nice it is to have pple to care for u and finds it interesting to read abt our problems, sch stress and some marriage problems...wah i feel so pissed already..that is really a coward thing to do ah...stupid psychituc, coward guy...at least have the courtesy to tag or sth...that's basic manners in case your parents have not instilled manner in u when u were young. dun get me wrong..i dun blame your parents cos i believe that they haf brought u up well enuff and i respect them for that. maybe it's just u who stubbornly refuses to do the things that your parents have instilled in u since u were young...
that's why i make it a point never to link my cousins' blog here cos i respect their privacy. thier blogs are quite personal and yes, we do discuss family stuffs ..watever, this blog is mine and i'm free to write watever i want...watever u read here is at your own risk....if u dun like watever i have to write here...u can jolly well get lost....it's my utmost pleasure to tell u that.....
i'm not that petty...i dun mind pple reading my blog cos i mostly write crap here...but pls tag me so i noe hu's been reading my blog...it's not a very mind-boggling and difficult thing to do rite..i'm sure we're all IT savvy pple...but that psycho guy sounds so crazy....it just gives me goosebumps...i mean u dun want to tag but u can send an e-mail...what sort of logic is that? okaylah...watever...as long as he's happy....
aiyoh...i just received an e-mail that says that i haf bio spa next week...i'm so dead...hahah kind of forgot everything....nvm i still haf time to read thru all my note..thank god my bio pract is on wednesday....
hmm i feel so tired cos just now i had pw. we had to do this experiment and we practically walked all around town...yup constance told me that zara is having 50% off its items....very tempting...but then i'm like totally broke. haha`i act had fun doing pw...we even took the effort to memorise the tissue paper song..haha....and we kept singing it in the mrt....
okie...for those of u who still hasn't watched spiderman2, go watch..i tell u it's woth all ur money...it's way much better than the first one..it's abt 2 hrs long...haha i act watched it on wed night with my cousins. who else can i go out with at night except my darling cousins rite....
oh yah, i'm so pissed man. how can greece beat czech republic? erggh, i really wanted the czechs to win and the czechs were clearly the better team...stupid man...just b'cos of one corner kick during extra time...aiyoh, now i want portugal to win...
haha anw in the portugal-holland match, my boyfriend scored...if u dunno who he is, he wears the no17 jersey..go figure out who my boyfriend is haha....then after the match he called me and dedicated the goal to me....how sweet rite? that's my boyfriend for u....haha...i'm seriously on a high...lalalaala
hmmm...been quite some time since i wrote crap here...did i tell u that my bro fell on his elbo and hips...ouch...i noe...i can feel the pain everytime i look at him....i heard that the wound is deep...haiyoh...my bro always falls down man...jinxed man...
to tell u the truth, i dun exactly noe how i haf actually spent my days rotting at home...haha...hmmm i actually filed and sorted all my notes and tutorials..proud of myself...took me 2 hrs to do all that....hahaha
i guess i better stop crapping now....okie tata...
