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let me see, today was one of the bestest day i ever had this yr. it's like a gathering for all my tkgs friends. miss them so much. it feels so nice to meet them again...it's as though we are still in the same school and never separated. i mean i do have fun with the odac pple and all, but this is just different. oh yah..be prepared for a very long entry...if u dun like my stle of writing and long-windedness, u can stop reading now....
sometimes i feel so lucky to be a girl. not trying to be a sexist or what but being a girl, u are able to bond easily and have great wonderful girlfriends. i mean we just go arnd and hug each other and say 'i love u' to all ur frens. can u imagine guys doing that? that's a slight digression....by the way....
haz, zawiah, fad and i reached azzah's house at arnd 3.10. ellia and rohani were already there. we started to put out the food and blow balloons...haha...i coulldn't even blow the ballooons...guess i had no strength...how spastic can that be...cannot blow balloons....
it was nurul's farewell party..second last party before she leaves for kl...disappointed that i cannot go to the hafla on 10th june cos i'll be in malaysia...she'll be going off on the 14th and i think i will go to her house before she goes off by car...UITM...the uni she will go to.
we actually had to hide our slippers cos nurul didn't noe abt this 'party'..it's supposed to be a surprise...then later shareena and khalies came...
nurul came with denise, cassie and shafah...haha...we shouted 'surprise' when she entered azzah's house, and boy, was she shocked and suprised. then we started to eat...yay...ellia and i had already eaten before that cos we were too hungry...haha..i really felt like a menacing glutton...
ate canadian pizza..chocolate cake, sandwich, jelly..jus to name a few. then we watched dirty dancing...i love the story...the soundtracks and the dance steps are simply wonderful..oh yah...the guy is like super hot...the dark look...that's what i call it....
halfway through the movie, ana and rashez came...from sch...they come to sch 7 days a week man...just b'cos of tsd...
next came the most fun part...'clubbing', except that it was all girls...we were blasting the music and dancing like no one's business..gosh, it reminds me of prom all over again...
after that, we were so tired and ate ice-cream...haha...i seriously think i gain weight today...then we assembled in the living room and each one of us gave a personal msg to nurul...so sad man....i'm seriously gonna miss her man....she's been a wonderful friend and listener...miss all the talks i had with her in the studio...
i think what azzah said was true...one by one, all of us will be leaving...to study oveseas or even migrate...but ultimately, at the end of the day, we will all come back and unite..no matter where or when cos that's where we belong and b'cos our friendship ties are very strong...of course i can picture myself being one of them who would leave...
later when shareena, khalies, zawiah, sal and fad left, the rest of us just sat down and shared our thoughts on our future - dreams, aspirations and marriage...it was fun...indulging in girl-talk..
haha...finally got the chance to meet denise. miss her so much and yes, she's still a toot. u should see her taking pictures of us..it was simply hilarious...she doesn't even noe how to use a camera!!! haha...but i still love her....
denise told me that i grew taller..yay..she just boosted my ego...haha. she told me sth interesting too - she said that she could just see the person that i'm going to become in the future...then she gave me a thumbs-up..didn't really get what she meant. she also told me that i am still them same fathiah but different in a way - more mature and confident of myself...as in whatr i want to do in life...
i agree with that mature part. now, i look more like my age. in sec sch, i could pass off as a sec 1 or 2 even tho i was in sec 4. towards the end of last yr and the beginning of this yr, some things happened and i became more mature than i ever imagined myself to. maybe it comes with maturity and understanding the environment arnd me. nonetheless, events that happened end of last yr and the beginning of this yr really made me grow up...
i just miss my friends so much...will forever miss them but i'm glad that we still do maike the effort to keep in touch with one another and having gathering sessions. the friendships that i've forged in tkgs will never be forgotten and shall never be broken..god-willing...
i feel so guilty cos throughout the time when i was at azzah's house, my relatives were at my house. it's a family gathering that my family has every week but at different houses. i actually wanted to leave azzah's house at abt 6 to 6.30 but i could not resist the temptation of catching up with my frens...and i can safely say that i didn't regret one bit in coming home late..10.45 to be exact...
wat a long entry! enuff said...
Friday, May 28, 2004
i passed my chem test by only 2 marks...can u believe it...borderline pass. i dunno why but when i am in jc, all i care is marks. i know it's wrong but i have to be practical. every test counts when u are in j1. if not, u cannot get promoted.
early in the morning, the principal talked to us abt geeting our basics right and the possibility of getting retained. wat a way to start the day. thaat's why it dawned on me that i have to work very very hard during the hols for my mid-yr....to push up my marks. i hate this man...since when was i ever concerned abt eesults. they don't mean anything..but somehow....ultimately, they do. it's a reflection of how well u understand the tpoics taught..
pw is in another mess. so many things to do. surveys, interviews and experiment to be done. all during the jube hols. how to study....
ergghh..i hate this feeling of failure seeping into me. this feeling of stupidity and uselessness....God pls give me strength to go through all this. perseverance and determination shall be my motto in life rite now.
tmr's my gp exam and i really dunno how to prepare myself. yes, i noe, read up..but i that all that i can do?
i feel so drained now. have been slacking this week....nvm i shall start studying nxt week...for now give me time to laze arnd first.
Thursday, May 27, 2004
sigh...everyone arnd me is feeling so pissed now. pissed at school, other pple and basically life in general. pw is getting suckier day by day. i'm so sick of school. first week of school hls, must come back some more. haizz...i'm sick of studying. my brain cells are all saturated already.
sometimes i just feel so stupid and lousy. i had my bio spa yesterday and i'm so gonna failt it. i have no idea why the moe had tp put that stupid thing in. so troublesome nnd demanding.
hmm..i think i better stop complaining. in the first place, i chose the jc route and i shall be resilient. dun give up easily. okie gtg now..update later.
Monday, May 24, 2004
sigh..this past week has been hell for me. imagine mugging for both your science subjects. haha..now i'm so dead beat...just came back from mj band concert. it's okie..but tkgs band is so much nicer. though i dunno anything abt band and stuff like that, i can feel and hear the difference...and no...i'm not being pro-tkgs.
hmmm...let's see. i still have tons of things to do..all gp matters...gp articles and gp essay outline. all must be handed in tmr. haha...i need a break...u noe wat, i'm beginning to hate jc life so much....
i failed my maths lecture test...expected to fail it...12 out of 30 marks. at least it was way better than i expected. haha...expected a single digit..bio test which was done on sat...21/30. hmmm..dunno whether that's good or not cos everyone got arnd the same marks...
okie...hmmm....i wasted my whole weekend away...practicalled slacked all the way. on sat after odac, decided to go to parkway to eat. miss that place a lot man...it looked so diferent cos the whole place is revamped. ate at banquet and then slacked at starbucks for 2 hrs...
on sun went to big walk and slacked some more until 3.30 when i maded my way to nurul's house to do some stuffs for aton's birthday gifts. oh yah, the chocolate cake was simply FANTASTIC!!!!
oh yah..i got GOLD for my physical fitness test. thank goodness man...no more physical conditioning...looking forward to playing games...
the bukit tinggi trip was almost cancelled yesterday due to some misunderstanding and impetuousity and irrationality of the adults....but now, all's well..seriously can't wait to go there...but sadly, i'll not be able to go to the second paintball session....:(
okie..i shall stop ramblingand get started on my work....oh no...i have chem spa tmr, bio spa on wed and gp mid yr on sat..i'm so dead...
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
mjc soccer lost to sajc 3-2. felt so sad for the players. their dejected faces, say it all after the final whistle was blown. now, mjc is playing against yj on fri for 3rd/4th placing. went home with the odac pple cos tiffany and i had no ideea how to go home from ccab...haha
after sch, constance, salwa shahirah and i took a cab to ccab. haha...so enthu to suppor mj..:)...so happy yesterday cos i finally met syafiqah after so long. she also came down to support sa...so funny...during second half, both of us were standing in the middle, trying to act neutral. yup, saw adzfar. somehow, he looks cuter now...*cheeky grin*...
thank god my 2.4 run for mafpha is over. my 5 stations will either be on thurs or fri...hope i can get at least a silver man. mj sux man...those who got bronze or below will have to go through another 10 weeks of conditioning in term 3. sux rite? i would rather do well now and get to play games later.
okie..i have a bio and chem test test coming out and i so haven't started studying. i'm so dead man. sighz...time is flying by so quickly....
klah...that's all for now. adios amigos.....
Saturday, May 15, 2004
maths test sux. i think i'm going to fail the test. i feel so pissed at myself. when i practise on my own. i'm able to do the questions but it is vice-versa when it comes to tests and exams. i just hate it mann. i mean it's not as if i had not studied for the test. whateverlah, it's over.
after the test, went to et macs, again with ellen, esther and shi yun..if get her name correct..odac pple. then came back to sc and had to run all the way back to pasir ris park for our activities. to make matters worse, the weather was damn hot...erggh...
came back to sch at arnd 2+....bathed and basically lazed arnd in the odac rm, eating ice-cream. oh yah, i think cherie is super cute...very naive and gullible.. oh yah, u pple should watch tro...it's a very nice show..action-packed..with battle scenes...sth like lotr. but i must say that lotr is better cos the soundtrack and sound effects make a greater impact. troy was a good movie nevertheless....abt Greek history..very interesting. i want to watch van helsing...my friends also said that it is a very nice movie...haha...
so many movies to watch..so little time...so little money...klah i better stop rambling now. oh yah mjc sports day was kinda boring. anw miranda got 2nd. yay! -_-
Thursday, May 13, 2004
i'm dead beat. just got back from school at around 9 although i finished school at 1.25. i would say that today has been a very fulfilling day. imagine doing maths from 2.15 until abt 6.30. yup....on trigo...how sad rite?
hmmm...i have a maths test this sat. the following week, bio and chem test, then on 29th may, my gp mid-year exam. what sad mundane life i lead. sighz....can't wait to go to bukit tinggi...a much needed break although my exams are coming..but heck...3 days of break won't hurt.
i got so tired of doing maths that i went to the odac room to destress...i tell u the odac room is like student lounge mann.but it's very hot and stuffy there.
did i tell u that mid yr exam timetable suck to the core>? when i come back on the first day of term 3, i have my bio and maths exam..then on tuesday, my chem paper. so i no need to come to sch on wed, thursday and friday. stupid...cram everything within 2 days...but yess..i shall study hard man...and hope it might help in my promos later on in the yr...
i declare that weekends are not an appropriate time to do your work..it's a time to ENJOY!! just look at the previous weekend. i practically didn't touch anything..on sat watched 50 first dates which is really a sweet movie, then went out iwth my wonderful and fabulous cousins. i just like the spontaneity at which things happened that day! imagine deciding to sleepover at kak effa's house even though we're already under my block.....haha...had a really fun time....having the girl talk and stuuf...so our next outing...escape theme park?
Saturday, May 01, 2004
i was reading all my friends' journal entries and realised that they are all feeling down..for various reasons. all of a sudden, it hit me that i am not a good friend...it's like i'm cut off from their life...i dunno...
on the other hand, i haf to admit that it is quite difficult to meet up....there's the vj carnival today. i dun think i'm going cos i'm going out with my mj friends. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SYAF!!!! really miss u lots it has been quite some time too since i heard from nabila and haz...wonder how they are...saw ili at tuition on tues..she looks different with her new hairstyle...better-looking i must say. didn't really get to talk to her much tho...wasted oppurtunity there.
i realise that i haven't been really mixing around with malays in general since i steeped into mj. the pple that i hang out with are usually chinese...most of them guys. haha..sometimes when i thiink abt it, it's kinda weird. but i guess i'm happier that way. kind of sad tthat sha and i kinda drifted apart after first 3 mths.
oh yah nurul, i think aton has already uploaded the pics. u can get it from her blog..
haizzz...one week really flew by. gema temasek was only a week ago. and yes, the wonderful outing we had last week. going to sakura to eat, then made our way to kallang river and finally, kent ridge park. that was simply fantastic.
yesterday, 2 scary things happened during pe. on thursaday, my classmate dislocated her elbow when we were playing dog and bone.u should see the angle of her elbow. it was bad man. then yesterday, another one of my classmates had an asthma attack. she was gasping for air and was breathing very heavily. i really felt so scared for her...and after that she was trembling.
another girl was crying cos she had rashes and she couldn't even move. i thought that rashes are very itchy but pple told me that it coud be very painful also. sighz..this is what u get if u haf pe 3 times a week....of which 2 of them are physical conditioning for 50 minutes each...1 lesson ontrack and field techniques..which equals to another 50 minutes of running...so many accidents have already happened and it's high time for the pe department to relook their pe curriculum...
i feel so relieved that my group has already submitted our first group project proposal tho i think it's going to get rejected. to be optimistic, the tutor will ask us to improve on it until it is satisfactory. finally, it will get aproved. the rigours of project work..
klah, it has been a long entry..cos i can only manage to update once a week. so that's all for now...
