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Tuesday, March 30, 2004

SARGAS OGLS ARE MAD PPLE!!! gosh, i just went online and they added me to their convos..i tell u it's so confusing...wat..with 10 pple in the same conversation...:)..but i love them nonetheless...

okie...i'm seriously a slacker..after bio lect i went to whitesands and sat down at coffee beans with eugena, sihong, tiff, liyana and megan..wah lau..we crapped a lot man...it's just so sad that we're all not in the same class again....but at least we get to eat recess together and hang out together too....

okie tmr got ogl dinner..the sch is treating us..buffet..haha..can't wait...slack with my fellow sargasians...crazy pple...haha...

oh yah..eugena, wei lin and wee ling keep calling me a bimbo which i'm not by the way..haha so i tell them that i'm a bimbo with brain..haha..i noe...it's lame....:)

Friday, March 26, 2004

what a week it has been! a tiring and fun one. being an ogl is one of the best decisons i've made so far in my life. yes, i admit it's very tiring. however it's really and enriching experience for me...one that i will not be able to forget as i've learnt a lot of things from being and ogl and the ogl camp...= )

hehe...sargas got 2nd. finally, we're able to prove that we're not a bunch of losers who always get last. looks like we've achieved our aim - not to get last and to get first or second place. SARGAS OGLS ROCK BIG TIME!!! i will miss all the times when we stay back to think of cheers, cracking lame jokes *looks at kok yong and gladys* and of course the dinners we've had at mac....it's heartwarming too that we still make the effort to meet....now i feel lost without them being arnd me...hehe

my og simply rox man! they are so co-operative..it's kind of easy to get their attention altho it can be quite difficult at times to ra-ra them. i cheered so much that i lost my voice...my voice is getting from bad to worse.. i find it so sweet that some of them thanked me for being their ogl personally or thru sms after the campfire. it just shows that all the effort that u've put in is appreciated after all....

sighz..i haf to go to sch tmr...serious business starts all over again....time to concentrate and be consistent..the process starts all over again....

Saturday, March 20, 2004

hmmm, i'm going to put a poem written by my friend...some of u may have heard it before cos she has already told u..think it would not be nice if i put her name here...*winks*

U NEVA KNEW THE FEELING TT I BORE
A FEELING SO STRONG AND RIGHT
TT IT SIMPLY HURTS INSIDE

U DON'T NOE WAT'S RUNNING IN MY HEAD
THOUGHTS BOUT U
MEMORIES OF US TOGETHER
AND BOUT THE TRUTH
WHICH I FEAR TO HEAR

U DON'T NOE HOW BADLY I MISS U
LONGING FOR U
I FEEL LIKE CRUMBLING INSIDE
TEARS OF SORROW
ONLY TO BE DRIED BY UR PRESENCE

ONE CONFESSION IS ALL I HAF TO DECLARE
I'M FALLING FOR U, REAL HARD
AND THERE'S NOTHING TO STOP.....

Friday, March 19, 2004

hmpphhhh...my cousins are all complaining that i never tag them..act i never ah cos i'm very lazy to do so..hehe:). now i dun care and i will flood all ur tag-boards..kan puas hati....:)*cheeky grin*

i keep coming home late from sch this week cos i had to do some ogls stuffs that my mother literally called me the caretaker of mjc...my jo is to lock the gates and close the shutters etc....

haha..i just love the sargas ogls, esp kok yong...they never fail to amuse me..of course, we're a bunch of slackers..no prizes for guessing...

just now i ate lunch at west plaza food court with ing hui, kok yong, cheryl, sandy, joy, samantha and hui ting...haha..kok yong was so crazy just now...we called him sophia..his maid name....and he's one great dancer and singer...gosh..that guy is always full of energy..and crappy too..:)

just hope that sargas won't get last again...altho i dun mind getting last ah...as long as we've had fun and leart from the experience..okie...now off to flood my cousins' tag boards...make them happy...*evil laughter*

Employment characteristics of Fathiah

Although Fathiah holds strong views on what is right and wrong, and will readily voice those views if someone's personal freedoms are under threat, she is not nearly so forthright with detail. A practical individual, she prefers the big picture to what she sees as the mind-numbing detail required of many jobs. As a direct result, Fathiah is inclined to leave tasks to the very last minute, despite the stress that such delays entail. She is best employed in a business with tight deadlines, such as newspaper or magazine publishing.

Ambitious, and with a constant stream of new ideas, Fathiah will be an asset to any organisation provided that she has someone else to take care of the detail. Highly personable, Fathiah has the ability to criticise others without incurring their resentment, yet deserves to be criticised herself for frequent procrastination.

With independence of mind, Fathiah may have seemed to be something of a loner in her early life. But as she matures that independent streak will lead her to positions in which others will rely upon her judgement and impartiality. Whatever skill she masters, whatever career she pursues, it should be one where her natural talent to command can be properly utilised.

Although Fathiah may be reasonably talkative in public, she finds it difficult to express personal feelings to those closest to her. In employment terms, this inhibition is of little consequence.

Sensitive to criticism and naturally intuitive, Fathiah has a natural ability to detect insincerity in others. Because she is a sensitive soul, Fathiah can be a solid friend and a good listener. As a result, she will get on well with colleagues, whilst being more than capable of handling office politics.

Well-balanced, with an understanding and compassionate nature, Fathiah is a natural leader who can inspire others. But she needs a certain amount of freedom at work and at home. With a compassionate and caring nature, and with the ability to get on well with others, Fathiah will be a strong member of any team and will provide solid inspiration and support to her colleagues.

Creative yet somewhat insecure, Fathiah is a family-orientated person who enjoys domestic responsibilities. She could well be employed in the hospitality industry - perhaps running a hotel, or B & B venture. In an office environment Fathiah will be valuable as the individual to whom others will turn for moral support. But home for Fathiah is where the heart is, and domestic responsibilities will always be important.

Fathiah will find life's lessons hard to learn. She will suffer from loss (of possessions or those she loves) before questioning the cause of that loss. It is likely that Fathiah will develop a faith of some sort, and although it need not necessarily be a religious faith, it will nevertheless be something that she holds onto against all the evidence. Potential employers need to find out what that faith entails.

Good with details and with a methodical approach, Fathiah nevertheless is someone who enjoys constant new challenges to maintain her interest. She is a methodical individual with attention to detail, but is inclined to leave tasks unfinished if her active mind alights on something of greater interest. Routine tasks that fail to challenge her intellect are at greatest risk, so Fathiah needs a job that offers variety.

Ambitious to improve her lot, Fathiah will constantly push forward to achieve something in her life, yet this ambition will be balanced by humanitarian ideals that will lead her to support causes that may demand self-sacrifice.

Enjoying the outdoors, Fathiah is someone who will perform best by being busy. She dislikes confined spaces, and needs both physical and mental exercise. A good walk in fresh air is an intellectual catalyst like no other to Fathiah, whose need to be constantly occupied is an asset to any employer.

Determined and persistent, Fathiah has the patience to wait until she has achieved her goal. She enjoys a progressive and enterpreneurial approach, and as such, will be an asset to any employer. If the number 4 (in the Western Grid) is missing, she will be inclined to lose her temper on occasions.

Understanding and compassionate, Fathiah is well-balanced. She possesses sound leadership qualities that are of use in a wide variety of jobs. With an understanding and compassionate nature, Fathiah can appreciate the views of others, and thus gain the respect of the community in which she lives or works.

Comments based on Chinese Grid

Fathiah will make some money and enjoy a reasonable standard of living.

Unless Fathiah also has in the Chinese version either the numbers 5 and 7, or the numbers 4 and 8, she will be hypersensitive and prone to stress-related problems.

Emotionally well-balanced, Fathiah is not too intense, and will reach the right decisions. However, with the numbers 2 and 3 in the Chinese version, the balance may be upset.

If the numbers 3 and 5 in the Chinese version are missing, Fathiah is something of a perfectionist who seeks to achieve detailed accuracy, and has a natural instinct to unearth the truth. If the Chinese Grid also contains the numbers 3 and 5, she will be attracted to work in a spiritual or humanitarian field.

In the absence (in the Chinese version) of the numbers 1 and 6, she will be good with money and details. She will be happier if the Chinese grid includes the numbers 5 and 7.

Although Fathiah is ambitious, her ambition is tempered with humanitarian ideals.

Fathiah is somewhat stubborn and very determined. Holding strong opinions that she will voice without reservation, she will nevertheless reach her goals through persistent hard work.

Serious and calm, Fathiah enjoys an inner strength that supports her faith. She may develop an interest in music, and if so, should be encouraged to master an instrument in early life. Later in life, Fathiah will become a dependable and respected figure in the community.

altho i dun really believe in these kind of stuffs, i can safely say that most of the above-mentioned are so so true...if u want to try your own employment chareteristics, click here.

Wednesday, March 17, 2004

i finally got to go to mcafe just now with haz and nab. had a little nice girl talk....sth i've not bee able to do with them...was really worth it going out. to think that we nearly postponed our so-called outing...:)

kind of weird cos syaf and ili couldn't make it...nvmlah..some other time aitz?basically i enjoyed myself today..u haf no idea how much we walked..to wisma atria then to al-falah to pray zuhur, then to far east, heeren, went back to city hall and lastly, ended up in united square...

oh yah, we bumped into raudah, khalies, farah, nurul sara and adilah...haha..wat a surprise....i guess the next time i see my friends again will be gema temasek...that is if they are going....

to nab and haz, remain strong yah..and pls dun give up hope..happiness will be yours one day. =). u girls can do it....hehe..both of u noe wat i mean rite?*winks*

i'm just glad that the friendships i've made don't only end in tkgs but it has lasted until now and hopefully it doesn't end......

hmm..love the pics that have changed hehe...

can't wait to go out with hazwani, syaf and nab....yay..okielah that's all...gd nites peeps..well should be good morning...

Tuesday, March 16, 2004

okie, i'm bored...officially...:)i haf no idea why i woke up so early today...just had my breakfast...as usual, i had cereal....at least i haf some intake of milk..i dun take milk u see other than wehn i eat cereal. well, i noe it's bad..higher chance of osteoporosis...

i think i'm starting to write nonsencical stuffs....ladidaladialadi.....

kak effa, i hope u dun mind me putting the mtv link on my blog...yesh kak effa..it's really a sweet, touching story....

so pple, if u're really in need to watch a touching sweet and sad story, click here...a box of tissue by your side...

Monday, March 15, 2004

yay..i finally have time to change my song...haha..love this song so much..kind of meaningful too...:)

oh yah nurul, i like the westlife song too..too bad u already put it on your blog.

the ogl camp was okie i guess...it was kinda boring for me lah...but at some parts it was fun...the couple dance rox mann...i love it so much....:)

went to sch in the morning cos there was a meeting for sargas ogls...to discuss bout the banner, house identity and placards....tmr there's class outing at sentosa but i dunno if i want to go or not...kind of lazy. furthermore, the weather is unpredictable nowadays..and i need to save money..that's for sure...on wed, i'm going out with syaf, ili and nab...but we dunno where to go yet...thurs, i have the beach day thing for ogls..again and fri,..to do the house identity...oklie looks like my schedule is tight for the hols...i dun even noe when to catch up on my work...haha..i guess i will take it slowly...

oh, i ws reading this article in the papers yesterday bouwhy s'pore's birth rate is falling and why couples do not want to have children....they gave all kinds of reasons and i find them very interesting. actually...i found myself agreeing with all the reasons that they gave..like how the facilities in shopping malls are not children-family and how society gets irritated at bawling children and of course no time and privacy for couples to make babies. plus the fact that some employers do not like it when some of their women workers get pregnant and of course the oh-so-short maternity leave. in addition, parents will be competing with other parents for leave and travel packages during the sch holidays since all childdren have the same holidays..well that only happens in s'pore..pathetic aren't we?

haha, act i dunno why i bother to write that..here i go again...blabbering...and i finally understand why i have all those mood swings last week..japanese flag is up..haha...:)

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

i was reading this particular entry of nuha's lj and tears started to roll down my cheeks. it was such a sweet entry..and all the memories of the five of us sitting together in the canteen came rushing through my mind...

how fast time flew by. now we don't sit down together anymore...the laughter and the talks we shared are just memories..memories thar are so sacred...that will always be etched in my heart and soul...it's kind of sad isn't it that we rarely talk to one another anymore...and now, it's only the four of us left...

gosh, the thought of one of us leaving still hasn't sunk in yet....i am not being selfish, am i? i know that she will be better off and happier in another place...i can just wish her all the best...it has always been her dream to go there...

i'm really feeling emotional this past few days..i teared when i read azzah's lj entry the sweet memories she had in tkgs...it all seemed so long ago, yet they are engraved in our hearts, as tho all that happened only yesterday...

u noe wat....pple might feel so disgusted when they read my blog..perhaps i should move on...really move on and close that chapeer of my life...easier said than done tho...

i will miss rohana dearly...and i really miss the times when nuha, ana, rohani, iffah and i would just talk and laugh after sch.... i just love u pple so much...*hugs u pple tite*

Tuesday, March 09, 2004

had a short day in sch today. went out with tiff and liyana to century square cos they wanted to pierce their ears. was walking arnd when we saw kenneth who was waiting for wee kiat to finish having his haircut.

i saw this sports shoes which was so nice. maybe i should ask my mother to buy it for me since i'm wearing my brother's shoes to school..then we went to eat at long john..wah, sat there for one and a half hours, talking most of the time..:)

there, we saw this cute girl who was the daughter of one of the workers in lj. since wee kiat had a camera phone, tiffany and i asked the manager if we could take a pic of that girl...here's a pic of the girl that we took...

iffah was feeling down in sch today and everyone asked me why she was sad but seriously, i couldn't tell them the reason why...aiyah, i duinno how to explain...nvm

oh yah, i sat on bird droppings today..gosh, i was so disgusted seyy..but luckily, the dropping was dry so it was eeasier for me to wash it off.

i was just sitting at one corner of the canteen today with iffah and rohani. it kinda feels funny to see everyone in cliques, minding their own business. i dunno, but it just seems weird..maybe it's just me...:)

Sunday, March 07, 2004

was surfing the net and found all this cute pictures of babies...so cute rite...*awwww*

Saturday, March 06, 2004

ooh, i just read the e-mail that syaf gave..so sweet..yup..it was so sweet of u to update me bout your life...thanks so much okies...luv ya...u just come and read my blog to know what's going on in my life, aitz?

okie..going to gpa later with shabana and hazwani..who are actually in the same pri sch..small wold huh?

act, there's quite a few things that i've been thinking about. how sometimes i feel so lost in sch...i dunno..to me there's no warmth and sense of belonging among the j1s..all of them are doing their own things...to be more precise, there isn't any common bonds sahred among us...to be frank, i've never felt so lost before...in tkgs, i can just plop myself on any table and i'd feel welcome..u noe..i can still talk to them...be it my juniors or seniors..i just feel at ease with them. maybe we haf the same frequency. it's funny isn't it how u're not able to 'click' with some pple...haha i shared this too with tiffany and she feels the same way too...

u noe, i'm so close to my class which is filled with chinese..i mean i dun haf anything against them being chinese. now, i'm so accustomed to mixing arnd them and chinese in general, that i feel so lost when i go out of class. suddenly, it feels weird to mix arnd with pple who are of the same race as me...so difficult for me..sumtimes i'm quite surprised myself at this sudden change in me. i used to be able to mix arnd with pple of all races, but now...everything is so different.

maybe it's because i do not have any close friends with me in mjc...but i'm in the process of building new friendships...close ones i hope. of course, i'll be left with only rohani and iffah. rohana is leaving...i feel so sad...i'll miss her a lot...the days where we would just stay back in sch to slack and the talks we've had...simultaneously, i feel happy for her that she chose vj as her first choice. having known her since sec 1, her heart has always been with vj. it has always been her dream to take tsd..and now that dream has become a reality...:)

to ana, always follow your heart and u will achieve what u've always wanted..u haf my support and i believe rohani's too as well..:).i seriously believe also that u'll be very happy if u get into vj...u noe wat i mean rite?

oh yah, i dunno what's with me attracted to chinese guys nowadays...i guess i''ve become so manjen-like already...:)

okie, let's have a quick update on what i haf done this week...slacker week.:)

monday: tiffany and i went to sajc..the sch is quite nice tho it seems a lil bit rundown..haha maybe it's b'cos mjc is so new and all. sajc does make u cozy and welcome, i must say. gosh, i would haf gone there if my L1R5 was better, my mother gives me the green light to go there and of course when my batch is affected when sajc moves to its new campus, which is nearer home..:( okielah, basically tiff and i went round the whole of s'pore on that day. we ate at the lj in novena. initially, i wanted to go to the mcafe since it's at novena but somehow we couldn't find the place, so we settled to eat at lj...we really talked a lot, shared our cynicism abt stuffs and of course, problems too. gosh, i wondered how i got so close to her...if she were to get into sa, i'd miss her loads man...

after eating, we made our way to kallang for the class outing...had fun man...oh yah tiff and i fabricated this lie on how we received a letter from hwa chong wanting us to go there just to make thes guy jealous..he's such a show-off. of course, he stupidly believed that lie..my class is so cute...they actually played along with the joke..like how some wanted to take f maths but the sch said that they were too good...haizz..just love my class. then we ate at sewnsen's at parkway for dinner...mostly an enjoyable, fun and tiring day

tuesday: can't really remember much on what happened. ELLIA came to mjc!!! haha..talked to her and ellia for a while at the library. then slacked in the canteen and talked to salwa they all...basically, a very slack day. watched the basketball match too...and went home with shazana..we talked a lot too..mostly abt stuffs...problems etc..

wednesday: after i ate lunch, i went over to sit with my classmates - wee kiat, kenneth and liyana. then wee kiat and liyana had to go off for cca, so it was left with me and kenneth...i think i really like to talk to pple...kenneth kept talking and talking from 4 till abt 6 mann...haha..of course wee kiat was there too..it's so fun to talk to them...sumtimes i think that chinese guys have a wider scope of things to talk abt..and u just feel comfortable talking to them...talked to kenneth until liyana and sihong finished their cca. talked some more and went home.:)oh yah, HAZWANI called me and we talked for a while...i really miss her a lot man..

thursday: stayed back in sch with tiff to eat for a while. talked som more. did our cytology table together and went home with rohani and tiff. at the interchange, rohana was already waiting for rohani and i...we just went 'shopping' and ate at macs tm. there was so mny things to catch up on...and to think that we're in the same sch! a little bit of irony there, huh? i just love my friends cos they never fail to amuse me with their unique antics.*wink*...only between rohana, rohani and i...

friday: went to orchard with shabana...cos she was feeling a lil it bingit and wanted to go shopping..so i accompanid her. haha..talked and talked and talked...i even went to her house for awhile..talked some more...haha...

basically if u can see...i simply love to talk to pple don't i? haizz...haha...but i like to talk abt things that have substance, wit and humour. maybe it's just me and i'll just roll my eyes if the convesation i'm in is so kiddy..it's okay for the convo to be kiddy but it has to have wit behind it..i'm just a person who lives on wit, i guess...

woah, what a long entry...:)

Monday, March 01, 2004

i'm bored. i haf no idea why i woke up so early when i slept at 3 in the morning...

i wonder if u can appeal even before the posting results are out. anyone noes whether u can do that?

okie i think i'm going to just dies of boredom if i stay at home. luckily i'm going out with my class...again. haha. i just love them man...S205 just rox. i think we're going bowling then we're going to lau pa sat after that to eat. b4 that i need to pay some bills for my mum and my sis wants me to find a tudung for the baju that she bought. but then again, she's so fussy...haha. come to think of it, i haf bought for her tudung bfore and she liked it...

okie, new development...i'm following tiffany to sajc cos she wants to know how the sch is like...okie gtg and get ready...

went to belajar ugama and finally got to meet nabila other than on friday. i didn't realise i had so much to catch up with her. sharing our experiences in jcs and of course the latest 'gossips'..had much fun talking to u, yah girl? now i can't wait where the 4 of us can go out and catch up with one another - me, nab, syaf and ili...

thinking of the 4 of us, memories of prom suddenly flashed through my mind. could still remember that we had to borrow money from ms terry to pay for the hotel rooms, the mess we created while getting ready for the prom, the lame mat jokes we shared and of course the serious girl talks we had until the wee hours in the morning. haha, and shafah joined us too altho she was initially in the other room. we slept so late that we almost didn't get up to pray subuh...oops..haha:)

of course we didn't go back to sleep after subuh and got ready to eat breakfast at victory. from swissotel, we walked all the way to bugis. haha..went back to the hotel and we played pillow fight. all of us were on a high after eating prata for breakfast...when we grew tired of playing pillow fight, we were dancing like mad pple...haha the after effects of dancing at the prom...

gosh, suddenly all the memories came back, flooding my mind...yeah the good old times...but now, things have changed. we are grown girls now, we've certainly have come a long way..could still remember how selenge we looked when we were in sec1...me included..haha...hmm maybe the 4 of us should go out one day, catch a movie or sth or maybe just hang out at the beach...no money needed there. or maybe mcafe..see first..

oh yah, i haf to start tuition soon and get down to serious work..i'd better stop slacking..nabila said that cik ayu is waiting for my call..haizz..the rigours of tuition will start all over again...