whee..had lotsa fun today!!! wnet to sch in the morning..stone-faced...haha..so anxious to get the results. after we were dismissed, my class took lotsa pics..hmmm luckily i haf finished uploading them already. then after that went out with them to eat at whitesands mac. then after that went to sha's house to tumpang sembahyang and just lepaking first.

as usual, i reached tkgs late. mrs loke had already started her 'speech'. kinda shocked that tkgs did quite well..tot that my batch was going to pull down the sch's standard..haha...top student, 8A1s, one A2...smart ass..of course she is a chinese scholar...i mean what do u expect rite...so happy that izzati and adilah got 6A1s, i think...and not to forget azzah..gosh she did so well..8-pointer...i felt so happy for her.

after the briefing by mrs karen tan, we all sang the sch song for one last time...it was kind of ibittersweet for me...then we did the tk philosophy and 'we were walking down the street' cheer..then wanted to see cikgu zain but he wasn't arnd so decided to go to bedok lj...budden i changed my mind and decided to met my sisters and cousin at simei to eat at sakura...after that dearest kak effa came and we all went to pasir ris park in her baby colt....:)hooray...had lotsa fun there...the breeze was so nice...peaceful..might be going there again next week to cycle... of course, we took lots of pictures too..haha...

finally, i managed to clear my mails...read them and all. some of the e-mails i received are very thought-provoking, managed to put them in my greatestjournal.

will be finishing sch early tmr. hmm, where should i go? i think mj is the only sch that releases us at 9.30. all the other schs..act sa release their students at only 12.15..mj so extra..9.30..i dun think i want to go home..just wanna go out with friends and calm down..that's the only thing u can do cos your fate's already sealed...the results are already with MOE..hmm, maybe we should just bomb the MOE building..haha..i noe i'm being very sadistic here...

|June 25 - 30 ~ Cat|

If you are a Cat: An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes
shy,with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness.You
love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal
circumstances you're cool, when given a reason to, you are like a volcano
waiting to erupt. You're a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an
icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don't
like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

sighz. it's confirmed. results are going to be out this friday. actually i dun feel anything..that's very bad. surprisingly, my radar is not working, as in my gut instincts are not telling me anything on how i will fare for the os. i think the pessure is getting to me. results, results...

i mean i'm staying in mj and i dun think it takes much to secure my place there..i'm not trying to b watlah but that's my frank opinion. but then i dun think i will be happy with just 18 or 19 pts. i want to get an L1R5 that has substance..know what i mean? i'm not going for glory or whatsoever but it's more of personal satisfaction...to feel that all the hard work and sewat put in and the tears shed have reaped benefits..and that all that hasn't gone down to waste...

i have always aimed to get a single digit or an L1R5 that is good enough to enter vj but the act of me going to vj is impossible..it's just an aim..target..goal...nothing more than that.

okie, enuff said abt results. have to remeber to bring camera tmr..take pictures with my seniors, friends and of course my darling classmates..maybe take with ms huda also...:)hmm can't wait to see all my friends again on fri..i think there's a tj carnival on fri also..

woah..it's been a long time since i updated man..a week to be precise. had a hectic week because of the talentime. glad now that it's over. i really2 haf to catch up on my work so many tests next week. chem on tues and bio on wed..i dun even noe how to study cos my today will be gone cos i haf class outing cum bbq. sighz

hmm today is awal muharram..or is it tmr? i just wish that i will be blessed throughout this new yr. such a simple wish..that's all i ever want. i can safely say that i'm pretty contented with my life at the moment.

i just love my class. such sweet pple. during the talentime, they chose the $500 seats. sat right in front of the stage.haha..they sure cheered very loudly..haha..then they even gave us roses for me, shabana, and tiff..aww so sweet. the surprising ting is that they even bought vanguard sheets and drew our names on it..so sweet rite? i am so gonna keep that thing man..for keepsake's memory.

i feel so pissed at myself cos i've been doing nothing for this past week other than dance, dance and more dance. when i reached home, i'll be so tired that i will fall asleep while doing my hw. that day, i dun even noe how i can even sleep while doing my gp essay, with a lollipop in my mouth..weird..luckily my sis woke me up at 2 in the morning..with the lollipop on my bed...yucks..

okielah..results will e out next week..i dunno y but i dun feel anything yet..maybe as the day goes by, i will feel scared. seriousl i dun even know how i will fare in the o levels..i'm scared, wat if i do worse than in prelims which was already bad enough..?i admit that i didn't study as hard as i should haf for prelims but i puled myself together and really2 worked hard for os. i'm like the total opposite of most pple who studied hard for prelims and slacked for the os.maybe i'm just weird.

okie..enuff of this ramblings..adios

well today is an emotional rollercoaster ride. went to iffah's house first in teh morning and helped her pack her fruit tarts cos she woke up late today. waited for ana at pasir ris control station but she was late..real late...so we just went ahead first.

lined up with my clasmates and just chatted with them. i really love my class man..such sweet pple...during the roadd race, i totally slacked..haha..just as had planned to do.:)the road race was kinda boring tho. all we did was run and then the prize-giving presentation...after that is the shitty part..we haf to split up for dance audition..so irritating mann...and the re-audition is on mon..how do u expect us to prepare everything man? the counsellors just dun understand, do they? they dun even noe anything bout dancing so they might as well keep their foul mouths shut. upon hearing that, i just became so cranky and my mood just went down and down.

then went up to nuha iffah ana and rohani in the middle of the field...haha so funny..we gave nuha so many big boxes, pail and basket...it was fun watching her carry all those thinggs back home:)haha..nuha is just so cute...iffah cried just now..somehow i felt sad too..amazing isn't it that u will feel depressed when ur fren is feeling sad?girls...we lepaked at the place for a while until 12+ when we made our way to pasir ris mrt to meet cassie...went to beach road to help ana find imp's present and then to orchard

i felt so tired man..not even an ounce of energy left in me...haha..and i got a free red rose..aww..so sweet rite...this contact lens company was giving out these pretty red roses...it's so beautiful i tell you....

oh yah, congrats yasin for coming in 12th and so sorry kies for making u wait alone and in the end not following u to eat..felt really bad man..wanted to msg u but all of us found out that we dun haf ur number...pathetic aren't we?

i wonder why everyone is feeling depreseed..sighz..and everywhere i go, pple have been talking about v-day and yes, love..seriously, i dun understand why pple are making a big deal out of v-day. maybe i'm just being shallow and narrow-minded cos i'm not and neve been in a r'ship before and not intending to at present...

heh i just treat v-day as freinship day where it is the day u show ypur frens how much u appreciate them...:)i have no sch tmr..yay!!finally, i can wake up late...i haf road run on sat...feel so malas to run...

half day today. went to shabana's house and slacked there until 3 when we haf to go back to school for audition which was oki i guess. wanred ro go to TP open house but sha, me and tiff were so malas to go out...

tiffany sang well at the audition..so did liza..after audition, lazed arnd in sch until abt 8 and went home with yasmin, iffah and rohana...i luv my frens so much...nuha, ana, iffah, rohani, irda, salwa, radh, kurseth, tiff, clare, wee keat, liyana, wee liing, wei lin, sihong, eugena and all..they are the ones that keeping me sane now..haha i think i'm crazy...

now i feel depreseed. my mood swings these past fewdays is so unpredictable. i can be so happy one sec and feeling down the neext...watevalah and i keep having hgastric pains..it's so irritating cos i eat annd eat and eat yet those pains keep coming back..and they are excruciatingly painful...

okie..my youngest bro has sports day tmr and he's running..all the best to him...

sheesh, my bro always makes my mum worried. i think he should haf enough common sense and sensibility already but he doesn't act as if he has one...erggh..i'm just irritated at him rite now.

i just got to noe the lamest and crappiest guy on earth just now...he's so cute and his jokes..super LAME!!haha, i just felt like pinching his cheeks mann..wingtong, wingtong...

i've been feeling mellow/down these past few days but i duno why..there's just this heaviness within me...sighz....and the casper soundtrack song is stuck in my head...

i shall update at my journal now...been so long since i updated there...pour out all my thoughts and troubles....

went for gpa just now..i had fun cos i was cheering and cheering like some mad person. it's been such a long time since i really screamed and cheered..meories of tkgs. as i did the tkgs cheers, i realised that i'm still so attached to tkgs. i met my friends and of course my darling juniors...miss them so much man..reminds me of the times when we always go home together and just crap in the bus after our dance practice....

mjc got into the finals, tkgs didn't..wat a surprise. i seriously tot that tkgs did a great performance..well maybe the issue that they touched on was controversial..sth to do with rape and stuff like that..u see, tkgians like to touch on controversial issues and usually, we dun realise it. for instance, last yr, we did sth abt pregnancy and abt pre-marital sex. we didn't realise it was a brave thing to do until a member of the audience commented on our performance when we were in the toilet. mind u, it was the finals, and we had already performed as we were the first to perform..

i went to gpa olely to support tkgs and see my frens. mj wasn't in my mind at all. ironically, when they announced that mj got to the finals, i stood up and cherred..talk abt divided loyalty..

i felt touched and sad that the juniors actually apologised to us cos they disappointed us..but u noe, there isn't really a need to say soory cos i noe they put in a lot of effort.

but i had loads of fun cheering man..u could really see the tkgs spirit..i just miss those days when i was still in secondary sch..it's not that i'm not having fun in jc..but u noe, it's just different..i cannot really pinpoint how different it is but it just feels different...

we did the tk philosophy and the we were walking down the street cheer..haha..so funny..we almost wanted to sing the sch song too..after that went to kfc and singapore post with sal, fad, zawiah, shafah, hafiz(no idea why he followed us), syaf, ili, shareena, nuha ana, me, azzah, rohani and haz. it was like my breakfast + lunch and dinner...

okie..tmr i'm going to gpa..yay..can't wait cos i get to see all my darling friends. haha..it's been so long since i met them and i'm finally having a chance to see them..well, there's really a lot of catching up to do...:)but then i haf this ogl thingey..the proposal thing..sighz...i think i'm going there with syaf and ili..meeting at paya lebar mrt at 1..

well it's been a sucky day today. sighz..after sch had that ogl thingey and found out that i was one of the 45 pple who had to do a proposal for the team-building activities on monday..then tmr had to come to sch and submit our propopsal..and of course we had to brainstorm until the coounsellors are satisfied...sighz..

bio pract was sucky just now..didn't understand what i was doing..after that, just lazed around in sch...okielah..i better finish uploading the hari raya haji pics.

had ogl interview just now. it was okie i guess cos i really talked a lot..i can never shut up. someone called me a bimbo..*glares at suhaila*. i'm not a bimbo..haha..but i take it as a compliment ah..

just now during maths tutorial, i was caught lending my tutorial to my classmate..waddaheck man...but my classmate, wee kiat is so cute. he kept apologising to me after that. seriously, i wasn't in the least bit affected...haha...desmond didn't come today...the chem teacher..ms goh took over...my impression of her changed..she's actually a very good teacher...haha...

i haha i always think that guys with dimple are cute but i take that back..biggest example is my maths teacher..koh kok kai...haha..he has dopey ears man...oh yah, yasin thinks i'm one of the few sane tkgians in mj...haha..i guess he hasn't seen me in my really crazy mood or when i'm high...iffah's testi to yasin is superb man..haha..one of a kind...

that day after bio lect, the girls had to stay back for a while. i tot it was sth badlah then it turned out that we got reminded on how to sit properly...*guilty face*. guess being in a girls' sch has its disadvantage..i should really try to sit demurely..finally living up to tkgs motto...:)

hmm, let me see...haven't been doing much during the long weekend except to complete my piling tutorials and assingnments...finally understood partial fractions and got down to reading my bio notes...i tell u i'm sol lost in bio..but now okaylah..haiz..i'm such a geek ..finishing all my tutorials, well not all but most of the overdue ones..

hehe, well hari raya haji was okiay i guess...went to nenek's house at 4+ like that..stayed until 10.just now i was eating nasi briyani with daging aqiqah..my cousins' one...baby huda and farah...my mum told me lots of interesting stuffs...how u cannot throw away daging aqiqah or korban etc..very the interesting..:)

i dunno what came over me so i decided to type my bio concept map just now...hehe..act it was more of an excuse to use the comp...klah off i go...and kak effa how was the showdown just now..details kies...adios..