SilMarWeN

Saturday, March 25, 2006

there are so many things that i want to write about but nothing comes to my head. or rather, i'm just too tired and lazy to write out everything here. maybe it's just the time factor. i just do not have time, not even for myself.

first that comes to my mind is rejection. u see my scholarship application was not approved. rejected and i do feel dejected like a girl who is unwanted. haha macam anak dara tak laku aje. i mean i was quite disappointed when i received the call but well, i just have to deal with it i guess. Rejectin does really suck, doesn't it?

anw, i accepted the course in nyp. and sch starts on 17th april for me. that's like in less than 3 weeks! nonetheless, i'm really looking forward to it. Meeting new people and making new friends all over again. it does get tiring to start from scratch but i'm hoping and praying that all will go well, insya-Allah. The optimistic and happy-go-lucky girl is back, i suppose!

work is fun. i mean i never knew that paying taxes is a long process plus the fact that your colleagues are abt the same age as you. most are poly grads, waiting to go ns and finding a job. a totally new environment for me since my social circle is very limited, miing around with jc students only. it sounds very snobbish but sadly, it's a fact. and no, i'm not a little bit proud of it.

i went for my medial check-up and i failed my urine test. Why? because there was a tinge of blood in my urine. oh no, my urine didn't red, alhamdulillah cos if it did, i have kidney problems. the doctor just told me to drink more water as my body is very heaty and wait for a few days to come back. so tenglasses of water for me for the next few days.

can't wait for tonight to meet up with my firnds after so LONG! the china people and the girl from m'sia and the rest ho have been busy working. Have a kit-kat, girls!!!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

i have been sleeping and eating non-stop since the holidays started that i think i've put on 35kg. hah. seriously, the only thing i ever do is sleep and eat, other than watching tv, indulging myself in a good book like the basic theory book. my test is on thurs and i'm just so lazy to read it. it gets very boring, if u know what i mean.

yesterday i went out with my mum sis and brothers. and i wish i have a billion dollars in my bank account. there were just so many books that i wanted to buy that i could just pitch a tent at times bookstore or popular for that matter. anyway, why are books so superbly expensive? grrr...i have to wait for my next pay so that i can spend and besides, most of my tuition money will be gone in investing in a new phone. my phone is really crazy...if u've tried calling me and thus unable to hear me, which brings to one pertinent question. is it my phone or my SIM card? who cares since i'm getting a new phone anyway.

you know what, this entry really makes no sense at all. oh yes, i'm currently reading "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" and i can tell you that it's really an eye-opener. and i've finally gotten ny hands on My sister's Keeper and The Curious Incident of the dog in the night-time. so from now on, my holidays will be spent reading books and more books....my lifelong companion. okay, the last line was very cheesy.

for the record, i haven't applied to any courses in NUS and NTU. the reason being that i don't even know what courses i'm really interested in. i mean all the courses are so rigid and none appeals to me. so how? i have until 1st april to think abt my future. ohwells. whatever.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

i have to say that i'm so proud of myself for not succumbing to the temptation of taking a cab home from simpang bedok last night. *pats self on the back*.first step in saving money.

it has been an enjoyable day yesterday, spending the day with the girls and one guy, exploring the western side of singapore, namely boon lay and clementi, for the ntu and nus open houses.

to top it off, the day ended with a delicously yummy but filling meal at simpang bedok, our favourite eating place, with the company of two beautiful girls, namely amy and kimmy.

oh yes, someone must stop me from going out with azzah. if we're together, both of us will spend our money like water and yes, she's bankrupting me(and vice-versa too).

i really look forward to the holidays..a well-deserved break. haha. no waking up early in the morning to go to school and rushing home so that i will be punctual for my tuition lessons. i really wonder how i'm going to survive when school resumes.

i'm badly in need of a new phone. anyone wants to sponsor me?

Saturday, March 04, 2006

okay, application to Nanyang Polytechnic: SENT! only online though. now i have to photocopy all my result slips plus cca records plus testimonials and what nots and post it to them.

so finally, the day that i have been dreading came. it was anit-climatic, to me at least. i mean it waas really the end of my jc life when the result slip was in my hand. the two years where i had slogged my ass off, slacked and met wonderful people i'd never thought i would.

teaching has been fun but tiring and frustrating at the same time. on bad days, i just feel like strangling and shredding my students to pieces. and yes, i do have a love-hate relationship with my students. i love them, sayang them but here's the catch-only when i'm not teaching them. they are really nice inividuals outside class, talking to you about everything under the sun. but when u have to teach them, it's a different story altogether. and i realise that i so much prefer teaching upper sec students to lower sec students who are really hantus and setans.

i'm very thankful and grateful for the results that i got. not very spectacular, just your typical average results. i guess i worked my ass off and i deserve it. to be able to jump 3 to 4 grades up from my prelims is a major feat nonetheless. to me at least. i got EEO for my prelims. so go figure how i fared for my A levels.

my students are such a joy to be around with. haissh, they really crack me up and know how to put a smile on my face. when i'm angry, they will come to me and say sorry and ask why i'm in such a bad mood and stuffs. the boys are so mean sometimes, calling girls names nd stuffs. it made me feel thankful that i went to a girls' school for my secondary school education. imagine the trauma and psychological effects the girls must have gone through.

okay, enough of rambling and ranting. back to doing more eventful stuffs like trying my like to apply for scholarships, thus reducing the fiancial strain on my parents.